Sriwayuni's

2011-03-29T23:26:00.000-07:00

Lol this picture. I still remember when the YOG people came to my school
and i was super crazy about this girl . Finally we took picture together ((:

&yeah, today i feel not so weak but still no appetite to eat/drink.
not even abit. cos i know i will vomit/shit everything out .
ahhh. my stomach still hurts and my head as well.
my nose pon sumpah irritating..

Anyways, i slept so much yesterday, i don't wish to sleep alot today.
Planned to watch tv then prepare something for budak kecik.
Afterwhich, i want to study. Lol. sakit sakit pon study eh? hahah.

Anyway i was given 2 days mc. So to prevent so much loss of lessons,
i study at home. Lemah tu lemah la badan. Tapi apa nak buat?

Oh yeah, i feel so contented cos when i heard my pay was in,
I called my mom to give my grandmom some money.
&the feelings are undescribable.

I wanted to meet her so much but im so weak to go out ):
I hope she's doing fine nenek..
I love you.

2011-03-28T05:48:00.001-07:00

School was splendid as usual especially during p.e lesson.
&the games played within my classmates with loves.
I was happy throughout school today.
I wish it could stay forever. The happiness.

Went back from school and had a short nap.
Surprisingly i did not eat anything after school. Even for lunch!
I guess i led a healthy lifestyle today.
Cos instead of food, i ate fruits for lunch.
Instead of the usual-blackcurrent-drink, i had mineral water.
And the whole day i had mineral water.
&last but not least, instead of dinner before nap, i had nap before dinner.

&I disappointed with myself. Cos i literally did not study today.
I tried to and planned to. I tried so hard to stay focus. But i couldnt.
Couldn't at all..

2011-03-26T08:54:00.000-07:00

What a fragile heart i have.
Well i am trying to occupy my time with O.
But i doubt you can occupy 24hours. Definitely, there's a point of time,
you'll be alone. Especially, before sleep. &hell yeah, there's when i will start to
think about you. I try so hard to not cry . To not be sad. I try so hard, trust me.
I thought that I am strong. Strong not to show my sorrow with me friends, at school.
As stated, i thought.

I wish i could be strong in my lonely time, as well.
I know i don't wanna depend my life on others.
I know i wanna be independent. Yes i want to be independent.
Sigh, you know what, firstly i thought i could express my feelings here.
But i doubt so.

Its just too complicated.
Cheer up sri, god will always be there.
Come on, smile.

2011-01-02T05:08:00.000-08:00

Eh hi! First of all, happy new year, 2011 (:
Well i hope it 2011 will be a better year for me.
New year je , aku kene pergi hospital sebab food poisoning.
Got injection and asyik nantuk jeee :(

&Yea, here's my resolution.
Everybody kept asking it.
None other than my O levels definitely.
I must strive for the best and kill my lazy attitude.
And thus i have to have more encouragement from friendssss!
Read more books.
&I want to have at least 3 As for all common test.
Improve in everything i do.
Last but not least,
be a happy kid and make my life more meaningful.

Hehs, god willing cos i taknak make my parents down, and myself too.
Well, after 4 years of hardwork, i will never take sec 5 for granted.

((:

2010-12-10T05:33:00.000-08:00

I will remember what you said to me,
till i die and i'll never take a step back again.
Forever.

Well you asked for it, you get it.
I just had enough.

2010-12-10T05:21:00.001-08:00

Fuck you.

2010-12-02T19:49:00.000-08:00

I feel fucked up. Even at work i did stupid mistakes.
Well that shows how much useless i am.
I rather be dead, right?

2010-12-01T13:04:00.000-08:00

I thought December will have a good start.
But my tears , early in the morning just proved me wrong.
&now i feel like running away.
It's like i'm not needed in this world.
Like i just said, i know i'm fucking useless.

That's how i feel now.
I'm a total disappointment.

2010-11-30T06:10:00.001-08:00

I'm confused with myself.
I'm a heartbreaker , i hate myself trucklots.

:'(

2010-09-29T03:58:00.000-07:00

I have tuition later on. I was supposed to do art today.

The whole day. But i don't feel like it. Something is bothering me , but i am not sure

what it is. Hence i feel uneasy, since just now.

Have you ever in that situation? Sigh.

My mother is another one. She kept scaring me about work.

Which made my heart feel more heavier to go to work .

It's my first work , can you like fucking give me the support?

Money wise. She complained to me about money.

But when everytime she got money, she bought clothes la , bags etc.

I don't even buy my own stuffs just to give her money.

And she bought for me extra food la ape .

Then make me feel at guilt. Every month she will top up my ez cosession.

She gave me the money then she complained. Okay fine i gave half of it to her back.

And just top it 10 bucks despite me working next week. But i didn't know what's her fucking

problem to even make me feel guilt afterwhich.

I even did not take my pocket money for tomorrow. I let her use for her

lunch tomorrow. Just what's her fucking problem now?

I tried so hard not to let it affect my work.

But i just feel really agitated right now.

I miss blogging :D

2010-08-23T05:51:00.000-07:00

I am still upset upon my results . My morning , i received a consequtive failure

papers . In addition of the bad remarks given by my malay teacher .

I felt that i'm useless over what he said . Like as though there's no a second chance for me .

What's worse , I was an 'A' student for malay before . Now i'm like the few lowest in class.

That's really a great disappointment . I felt like bursting into tears .

But i still passed anyway , it's just the unexpected drop . Ahh .

But hey hey to be optimistic , I passed my both english paper1 and maths N level prelims

with flying rainbow! Okay too happy already . But cannot be too happy uh . I heard that paper 2

is not a well done . So yeah . Ahhhhhhhhhhh . I sodeh laaaaaaaaaaaa .

:'(

2010-07-10T11:36:00.000-07:00

I just hate to be lonely .

I don't want to cry another tear .

But i can't help it , sigh .

2010-07-08T06:02:00.000-07:00

I'm finally 16 and i had nothing much on my birthday this year.

To be positive , I had the chance to be with my friends , dearest on my day .

&I'm grateful for that .

Thanks for everything .

Right now i'm pinching bit of my time to blog as i've been craving for it . heh .

School has been really tough . Coursework , study , coursework , study .

And time just so much limited these days . Due to that , my backbone has a frequent pain

and i have to eat the medicines given . Moreover the medicines caused drowsiness.

&I just fighting over the battle for energy as well as time .

I really feel weak these days and i'm spending my left over energy to whatever

i can manage and all strictly for school .

At my own time , i do feel the miss of being loved and spend every of my

own time with someone i really love . I just miss that . However I remember ,

i did told my friends who are having problems with their love ones that ,

When we choose to owe the rose , we can't get rid of their thorns .

Life is not about a bed full of roses anyways .

So , yea , i learnt my mistakes and i have to grow from my old problems .

I can't be the same anymore who lived in melancholy and disaster life

just because of someone . Cos why ?

I just loved her so much . Loved .

Another thing is , i am not that type of person who don't care about new friends .

Be it either that or long time friend who has not be talking and get through me back .

And I was like , i am here trying to value the friendships and people just define friendships

in a wrong way . I mean why ? Just so selfish .

Eitherway , i don't like to be treated as if i'm their stereotype .

Be it friends or anything .

Prelims is just in a month time .

I still have countless of doubts in Maths .

Don't talk about chemistry .

Sucker -.-

2010-06-30T08:10:00.001-07:00

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Ke mana arah hendak ku tuju
Bila hatiku rindu padamu
Hendakku cari tapi tak guna
Kau bahagia dengan si dia

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Terbayang bayang kenangan kita
Tidak ku sangka kau tergamak pergi
Saat ku masih perlukan mu

Meraung di jiwa apalah daya kiranya orang dah benci
Meraung di jiwa tapi tak pernah ku benci
Dirimu sayang

Best wishes ,
Sriwayuni .

Charice melts me .

2010-06-26T01:28:00.000-07:00

I slept at 4 am . I just had the same problem over and over again .
I thought i could move on , but yknow what , i can't .
Sometimes i hate myself from being weak .
I have told myself numerous times that , be strong be strong .

Yknow i tried to occupy myself with Nlevel .
Many ways i thought to forget bout you .
Even at a last resort , i can't .
I hate that feelings.

Till at one point i couldnt take it ,
Even at a childish thought to kill myself .
I tried to open up my wings .
I told my brother everything .
It was at two and everyone has asleep .
Even if there is smeone , sometimes it's hurtful
cos no one could understand me .

I thought my brother could not bother.
But yesterday proved everything wrong .
My brother tried every ways to advice me up ,

his texts fill me up .
His strength just made me feel stronger.

Girl , i think i like you .

2010-06-24T02:42:00.001-07:00

slept around 7 am as i was playing my brother's iphone.
I had fun downloading games consecutively and play non-stop , i swear it is addictive .
I woke up at 2 plus in the evening and i discovered pain at my stomach ,
I went to the toilet gazilion times , i swear my ass feel like bursting now .
Luckily i have eaten the diahhreo medicine which i have no idea how long i have kept it .

I feel better now .

Currently i am thinking how am i going to do my my my art .
How am i going to survive without the light box ?
Oh my . Die .

I left 3 days to finish up my my my my ,
Maths O lvl tys , 2 physics section b papers , errr,
my 2 piece a2 art prep!!!!
Ah die die .

I need money , really .
But even if i have , i would spend on food and food and assignment books .
I need money to print photos for art . Ah dieeeee la !

Seventh heaven

2010-06-23T07:41:00.001-07:00

I am posting this post cos someone asked me to .
Actually im very lazy one cos i would rather watch Charice sings at youtube .
But because of this girl , i post .
Hahahahhahaa!

Lately i have been mugging with N level .
And as usual , i eat alot .
I dont go work out too. Cos im busy with back and forth to the library , macs to study .
And art has been really stressing me up .
But still i couldnt be bothered much bout my art .
What i really do is my academic .
I am fighting for at least 3 'A's for my N .

And that's another reason why i dont online much too .
But i am still happy cos with all those busy-ness i have ,
I tend to forget about my sorrows , as what i told shah .
And i have been smiling alot .

Family bonding has been great , especially me and brother .
We have been very close like before , now .
Like what i have been waiting for . I am grateful for that .
Since the day my brother treated the family out to dinner .
He has been very cute lately .

Joey just said that my hair is nice now that it has grown longer .
HEHEHEHHEHE, I LIKEEEEEE!

School is reopening very very soon ,
and oh well , my birthday . HEEEEE! I SUKEEEEEEEE!
And and and Nlevel too .

Trust me , i have been working hard for it .
And i shall not be lazy anymore when school reopen ,
i promise .

Hospital appointment is just a solid week away ,
i am scared .

And rhy , i have posted . And you promise me to sing like charice .
HAHAHAHAHA! :D

I am trying to be strong.

2010-06-20T05:10:00.001-07:00

Err, hi :D

Holiday is coming to an end . And trust me , i roughly only studied 20% of all
subjects . I have been lazing around and eat and eat eat . I eat a lot , really .
I just had a picnic with a bunch of loves . Laugh and being happy everyday without
even have a single pinch of worriness for N level .

All i know is , i have been counting down to my birthday which is in a solid two weeks time.
And i wonder who will care for my birthday cos i know i'm the one who has been over-reacting .
Hahahaa! K da .

And babe , 17.6 just passed which known as , my 2nd monthsary being single . And now i
am glad that with friends , they are my support , my courage and my everything. They are my laughter , tears , shoulder to lean on . They never fail to be there always for me .
They fixed my heart therefore i don't need any gf now .
I have become stronger up to today due to them .
I have become wiser because of them .
I have learnt alot from them .
They are my source of happiness.
They have completed me . Yes they .
And thus , i love them .

Thanks for everything . For the support .

Tomorrow i'll be having social studies class . Ow shiok! :D

And on a lighter note , girl , I hope my dissapearance has made you happy with your gf . Less stress . Less whatever thing . I just want the best for you , thanks for letting me to love you . It has been a greatest memory ever and you mean alot to me . But i knw , this is what you want , you want me to do whatever so that i could be happy . Well , now i am being dependant with friends . I can't love anyone accept you . Cos you were my world that just had been stolen by another party . But anyways , dont worry , I still have my friends and i am happy with them . And as you know , i am not giving up on ya but i am just tired . Tired of getting yourself stress about me . Tired of winning your heart cos i know the same thing just remain . And as what i told others , by this age , i should have known how to prioritise my things . I should have known which is more important . Other things require my attentions too . I still have my own future to look for .

I should not be weak anymore .
By now i should be almost at the verge of winning the battle of getting over you .
Peace .

And , dry cough is being irritating tho .
I can't sing and i talk like a man .
Suckish .
To add on , Happy belated 48th birthday mom and , R.I.P
my dearest grandpa .

&I really have to mug through this coming last week of holidayyyyyy .

I want those moments back , i want you :(

2010-06-07T05:18:00.000-07:00

On saturday i did my homeworks and study some stuff.
I thought to meet eyul but my backbone was really in pain . I just came back from poly
on last friday and i had to refer to kk hospital , suspected to have chronic backbone .
Therefore , further checkup is needed.

Sunday i wokeup 1:30 pm sharp and texted amira mokhlis for gym , awesome .
Met at 3 plus and gym-ed till 5 pm . Afterwhich i met cousin for study at tmart .
Chaos okay . Took alot of crazy photos and i shall upload it to facebook soon!

Monday i had school , first 2 hours, chemistry . boring tauuuuuuuu . :(
Thanks goodness there's someone who texted me all the way ^^
Then i had physic . I was really engross to what teacher was talking .
Okay but halfway through , i had a great laugh with joey , ardilla , atiqah .
But still , i understood the lesson pretty well . Owh , i so in love with physic . ^^
Afterwhich i headed to somewhere for something .
Oh i so damn love it, i swear .

&I hope the dog will recover soon ):
& i think i can finish up my painting by this friday , god bless .
Sigh , biggest worry .

*edited*

I despice people who said about sins stuff/religion and tell people what's right
and what's wrong knowing the fact that , everyone is imperfect . Even if i'm like this
like AT LEAST , i don't go around eyeing for hot guys desperately like YOU.
I have never commented about your personal life, so what gives you the right
to comment mine either ? Please have a good reflection of yourself in a mirror .
Sorry if this sounds harsh , but this suits you .

Open your mind , for goodness sake .

I hate horny guys .

2010-06-01T07:55:00.000-07:00

Sometimes , i miss the hugs given by my , real lover.
You can easily feel the difference when you hugs and kisses from friends and a lover.
Personally , i feel that , hugs and kisses to friends , is just a happy and blaze feelings
you can get anywhere and everywhere . Certain people xoxo (hugs and kisses) when they
first meet up and that's that . Another portion of people , they hugs and kisses when they're bored or as and how they like . We just feel like it . But we don't love that person as a lover neither they love us like one . Eitherway , if it is then it's called, one sided love . However if you were to ask me , xoxo to a lover , it definitely mean something big . You could feel the passion and you feel loved too . When both party is in love , those sparks , believe me it can be feel through hugs and kisses and there comes , security . Where you let your tense go and ... you will feel like you're on seventh heaven . Correct me if i'm wrong . Come'on , dont you guys smile calmly after every long xoxo given by your partner? That's so natural right ? You could even differentiate the calmness you feel when you're smiling after xoxo wth a lover , than casual smiles .

That's what i'm literally feeling now . I do not sound desperate, do i ? I'm just miss the feelings .
Of cos i would be blessed if im attached and i can do that whenever i like to my girlf . But eitherways, i don't feel sad too now . I just MISS.
Yea, dont get it wrong .
And if you think im a desperate , you may f off. Cos im not .
Okay i sounded like i was doing an expo essay except the last part which sound so .. Vulgar.
Hehehehhee! Anyway .

In my opoinion , i feel that today's like .. so short like that . I kept thinking thinking about it .
And despite today , i had 2 hours of , english , physics , maths respectively , i still felt that ,
" eh , it's just 12 plus plus now ! " When it was at 3.30 pm =.= But today school is quiet fun and i was quiet focus , really . And guys are guys after all . The incident happened in class just now ,
was so terrible that it's unforgettable . I swear :/

I love smitha tho i know she don't . :/

2010-05-29T04:40:00.001-07:00

I woke up at 11 30 when my hp msg ringtone rang .
I thought it was from someone special but apparently its from my tutor .
As promised at 2pm till 4 pm , I slept late the night before and wished to wake up late .
But as soon as i grabbed my phone with the thought of , someone special , No .
it's from my tutor , saying that , tuition will be at 12 pm , sorry for the ammendment .
Sigh . I hurry hurry bathe . I was so sleepy i tell you .
Then the tutor reached at 12 pm , i was still in the bathroom . I went down at1230 .
Amek kau , sempat makan . :D

I went home at 2 pm and watched tv, ate fried rice and nuggets . I thought of doing my
homeworks and to have some self study bit . But i end up , lazed around and in the end ,
laptop . Facebook and msn , last resort, i did not study .

Thanks to kaszt . I chatted with her since 3 plus till now . You can count the hours .
Sorry for the craps . I know i crapped alot with her . But still she can entertain .
I was tremendously bored thats why . :D
And yea, i sayang her . Hahahah!
But too bad , she cant read this . Ass .

Tomorrow i hope i can lepak with the old people .
I miss erica and iwanina so much la please.
And i miss fiqah too . Grrr.

Mnday wawa ajak keluar ramai ramai .
So awesome :D

Tuesday back to basis .
Baik , homework satu belom buat .
:/

Head over heals .

2010-05-22T21:44:00.000-07:00

24thMay2010, 11.00 pm .

Today had npcc day , i brought along my school bag with books ,
npcc uniform , school skirt , both np shirts , shoe bags .
Semangat one i tell you .

Lessons weren't okay . I told mummy i felt feverish and had a little flu that morning .
I didn't know that it going to be like this bad . I thought of having early dismissal during recess ,
but with the thought of becoming the next wonderwoman , i tried to stay strong and continue
the lessons . Till one pm , my form teacher came to my table and asked whether i was okay
or not . Then i was asked to go to the general office and called my parents . I went back alone.
once reach , i just put everything down and swollowed two panadol and slept! :D

Tomorrow i'll be having prelim english oral .
I have to go nevertheless as i dont have any mc .
But im not going to school . yay! :D

I miss smitha pillai .
Sigh , stop it la sri . -.-
Da la , k bye ! (:

Pink dot .

2010-05-16T00:47:00.000-07:00

Pink dot was great .
Met gee , reena and ja then met the shank and the rest and off to hong lin park .
Met some of the springfielders. Hahaha! Okay so , we all camwhored alot , pictures
are at here . Then , we took train to orchard , far east and had our late dinner . The
mrt was sumpah packed with people . By the time i finished eating it was at 9pm .
To avoid being in a packed mrt , i took express bus and bused home .
In conclusion , i enjoyed that event so much . It was so happening that i could feel
the bond between us are getting closer and certainly i am looking forward for a day
where we all will gather again and grab another fun moment together , just like what we got
during pink dot day , i love you all ((:

Today supposed to meet sam but everything just cock up . Nt because of her , but me .
Oh well .

2010-04-23T03:16:00.001-07:00

May peace be upon you .

I'm doing well and so is school i guess .
I'm killing time again while waiting for tuition .
I kept yawning gazillion times and my eyes kept tearing for gayness sake la .
Like so nantok like that but sucks la cos i can't sleeeeeeep .

Grrr. eh , i am meeting my babies tomorrowwwwwwwwwwww.
Tsk see la . exams lagi dua minggu macam dua tahun -.-
Tsk tsk . Aku tak tau la . macam down lagi gitu .
Sebab asal ? Nari dua puloh tiga hari bulan april dua kosong sepuloh .
Dia langsung tak text aku .
Kawan konon .
Bungkus sua .

Aku sodeh sia .
Argh , Nevermind . Oh . i just recorded a video made by me .
Me, singing Your guardian angel .
Aku cuba cuba je la . Aku tahu tak sedap .
Dan aku tak tau asal suara aku macam pelan .
Tapi takpe . Asalkan guitar baik mutunya! HEHEHE!

Okay pardon my mistakes .
I just learnt eh . mark that .
Okay i wanna continue watch my Jelita .
I know today english broken like supreme . Tapi who cares anyway .
My otak tired already . I desperately need a sleep .
Asshole betol .

Baby (=

2010-04-15T04:06:00.001-07:00

I miss my longggggggg hair . Tsk .

Literally i've nothing much to say . My intention is just to kill time while waiting for
tuition ..... Tsk im tired . Really . I had 4 periods of maths just now . almost 2 period covered
with 10 year series book . I swear i'm sick of it . Luckily at the end of the first two periods , there's somehow free time for us . Not really la a free time la but we were assigned to do some
revision paper on SPEED GRAPH WHATEVER SHIT . Okey i told you . I'm not fave in those
topics involving graphs . Despite the assignments given , i pick those little little time to nap :D
My beautiful nap was disturbed by Floris in class .

But it's okay . She's giving out some english worksheets and guess what .
I received my essay and letter writting and received awesome comments for both papers!
Okey that's what people called , even though we are having a very bad day .... god is not cruel
to let us feel little little happiness behind those woe moments right .
Gah , just enjoy reading it .

I can't stop smiling till the end of english periods .
Then i had maths extra class again for another 2 periods and we had test .
I'm glad as there was quite a satisfaction that i could manage
to do 3/4 of the paper .

I went home afterwhich and napped .
Im going to tuition later and perhaps we covering speed time graph topic .
Tskk , I swear im tired and lazy at the same time .
The topic itself just turned me off from going .

I am sad .

2010-04-12T05:52:00.001-07:00

I had my Saturday spent with loves . I was being fickled about it la cos i had a fight
with shello the night before that made my entire mood turn off for saturday . But however
after i had thought numerous times, i still went for the sake of firstly , i miss syiqin like veryyyyyy . She's the ... one in the grayscale photo . The only grayscale . And i just wanted to be there for trisya cos she was having problems recently . I just , pity her . i hope she can stay strong as she knows i'll always be there for her .

We met at 10.30 am . Tak ke pagi tu name ? Aku da macam zombie dalam train . tsssk .
they cabbed all the way from amk to eunos just to fetch me . hows sweet .
Drizzling quite badly but it just last for not till an hour . Thanks god . The place wasnt that packed and im thankful again for that . We camwhored and laughed and IN LINED AND CYCLED. Alot more photos all here. (:

We ate somewhere over almost at the one end of the east coast park and we walked off around 8 pm . I kept grumbling and grumbling as i was really tired and my backbones were being a killer on that day but halfway as i was walking back, i donno why i felt so calm . I think the wind breeze. & the sentimental songs i listened with trisya . We walked to the underpass and to the bus stop . Something happened to syiqin and as a result, I reached eunos inter around 9 plus already . Therefore i cabbed home from eunos and it costs almost 10 bucks . Sad sei . but its okay .

We planned something again and its on 25th :D
Karaoke okay ?
Sri nak nyanyi lagu dangdut . hehe!

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Sunday i had to wake up early as well and i had to travel to punggol with my ....
Brother and father and mother . Father was being a sarcastic to me that morning .
Whats more my brother . I swear i did not feel like going but for my mom's sake , i still went .
Punggol lei . so fucking far . sommore my father's side which i detest alot . Not detest la . But i hate their attitudes . So biars. and In malay we call , pilih kasih , paham ? Aku benci sia .
I made reasons so that i could escape from the packed house to my grandmom's room .
And guess what , i managed to snore like a pig , i sleepppppt! Awesome kan .
We cabbed home in the evening and talked to trisya till night over at msn (:

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Today is monday . First day of school i swear it sucks . Cos my mind has been occupying about saturday . Saturday saturday . I'm still being fickle about it . Cos my heart tells me that yes ,
I still love you tremendously .

I was really moody the whole day . My neck+backbones still doesnt get any better and i almost tear up whenever i see my frens get scolded by me unintentionally whenever i saw my friends being happy , i felt leftout . Cos i was really in a mudane situation . I tried to join . But it doesnt get any better . I still feel the stone in my heart which tough to let go . I even shouted loudly to my friend. With the unusual me , i shouted a vulgar word to him . Perhaps the whole school could hear me . Sigh . How nice if there's someone to hug on that point of time which i really needed it .
Since kimo having school , i texted trisya that i really need a hang out . I wasn't feeling good.
But sigh . nevermind . She wasn't free. & anyways , I don't feel good to enclose this matter to my classmates . I felt insecure . I don't know .
I thought i could occupy my night tonight with studying history and chemistry from missing her .
I already bought highlighter and liquid like finally but i still resting my but on my bed playing laptop . I tried to sang loudly and hoping i could at least ease my mind . But it sucks that i can't .
I can't .

Tomorrow i'm meeting trisya and phyl .
I hope at least it makes my day .
Stay strong suwee baby .

& Happy 5th monthsary to my dearest friend , wani and bf (:

Sigh.

2010-04-07T03:45:00.000-07:00

Hi baby(: I miss playing kites tho i can't fly a kite .
Okay . hahaha! I've been busy with school , gf , friends .
school has been tiring . like really . I've been enjoying maths and have been doing
all worksheets or 10yearseries quests diligently :D
Unlike last time which i love to sleep during maths lessons .
Tsk . I just hate drawing graphs , really .
I wonder why people can get stick to it .
I mean , i understand uh . but when it comes to drawing ,
i just couldnt be bothered .
However , probability is the best .
& so matrics x3

Our class emerged champion for sports day . We had free breakfast
prepared by our both cute teachers . We has superman cake .
& i could see the envy face on every teachers who passed by the canteen .
How awesome .

Now , i just came back from school .
I just had ENGLISH extra classes + Art art art .
Shits . my art ..... imagine i used 5 periods which equivelant to .. like almost 3 hours .
Which includes today uh and i still like pathetically stuck on this hills . A HILL .
There's total of 3 hills and i still feel that it's unsatisfying . I don't see the 'wow' face on my teacher's expression . my self-esteem just getting lower about it . The number of days given to finish up are so pressurizing . Not really la . but what's most pressurizing is the ... things that my teacher always say . Sigh . Just so pressurizing .

Especially malay and english .
Tsk i promised myself i shouldnt be whining so much about this but i am just tired .
Im sure all graduating students are facing the same situations as i am now.
So i really must stop . .
Literally i don't mind doing all at a time but the teachers ar.
Tsk . Binget sia. I'm glad that im stepping down really soon .
HAHAHA!

My neck is so stiff .
And so my shoulder . And so my backbones.
I've been putting KOYO KOYO (yoko) countless times today .
My face is like swollen with pimples.
And my hair has been having a bad hair days recently .
I just cut my fringe . like rooster habis!

im having tuition in less than an hour time .
I still yet to do the homework given .
I feel like napping now .

Im craving for ben and jerry's
I want want Fried mars balls.
I wanttttttt chat with heikel . hahhahaha!
i want want wanttttt meet umaimah and cuz anza so much!!
I am looking forward for this saturday!!!!

like so awesomes.
heee!

Matrics .

2010-04-01T08:54:00.000-07:00

Hi . I rot the whole afternoon and evening .
I was so sick and my flu is getting worsen .
I just came back from tuition just now at 1030 .
Imagine i learned in a sweat condition . But i was shivering .
Okay it sucks uh . But i managed to cover the whole matrics topic .
Awesome much .

I just pranked my girlfriend and she's like so funny and cute at the same time .
But i so bad ar . Prank about break up . Member chuak sia .
I called her and her voice like super down .
Sepuluh kali mataer aku cakap .....
"B!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU TAK BAIK SEIIIIIII (SUARA STEP MANJA)"
HAHAHHAA! kay aku da tak tahan nak ketawa lagi . HAHAHAH!
Aku sayang die sangat sangat (;
Muah.

Lovestrory.

2010-03-28T08:05:00.000-07:00

Happy belated 16th birthday to ...

greatest bitch partner , ardilla . (22.3)
Nurul Syazwani , my montel sistaz (25.3)
Annoying classmate , Hazim (29.3)

Happy advance 16th birthday to ...
The best classmate and bestfriend , joey quek (1.4)

May you guys enjoyed/will be enjoying your day and take care whenever you are.
Friends forever! (:

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Lama kan aku tak update . Tskkkkkk . Been busy .
Yes . I've been very very lazy these days . Like ... i sleep alot in class .
I don't know la . I just feel exhausted from speech day and such and the rainy season
these days had just caused a high fever and a very bad flu .
I did not attend school on monday . And so tomorrow and the day after perhaps .
How amazing . But of cos i will be losing alot of studies . But i'm glad that maths is
on track now . Tho i never come school but of cos , i still have tuition for maths . But even
if i don't have tuitions , i will still try my best , not to let myself at a losing point . I mean ,
i can't depend on tuitions only mah . And also . not only for maths la of cos .
My other subs also (:

Oh , i had sport day just now . I met floris , brenda , jolene , joey and wani at inter .
We finished up the banner and we headed to the stadium together . We camwhored
like alot . and yea , we emerged CHAMPION! I thought i was already recover when im not .
I cheered like a mad woman . But yea i felt feverish halfway through . I had my medications taken and rested for few minutes . And i cheered again . Like stupid . Then we went lunch at popeye , again . Pictures are all at facebook .
I bused home at 2 pm and com-ed a bit and slept . My temperature
since then was about 39 celcius . I had my medications taken again and i was off to tuition but this time i had tuition , under my void decks . I was really weak .

Tomorrow baby will be coming to my house to accompany me to the doctor .
I was really looking forward it .
Only god knows how much i am missing you right now .

On a lighter note ,
I'm proudly to announce that I'm currently attached with Norashikin aka Kimo
on the 23rd March 2010 .
&Im truly love you .

2010-03-22T05:18:00.000-07:00

I want to have a distinction for may O level maths .

acrylic (:

2010-03-14T08:40:00.000-07:00

I will just summarize all thing that happened to me during my holidays ,
I'm tired with everything that has been happening to me . Yes im tired . Who doesnt ?
I stil have tons of homework and things to study . Few more minutes to sunday .
So fast like .......... omg . almost 3 months down . I still have around few months to N level .
You can just count by a hand .
Fuck right .

But i still like .. laze around . and had been having fun .
Really . You want to know what i did?

Last Sunday,

i went out with Ardilla , brenda , joey ,
jolene for picnic over at Marina barrage .
Kite never fly . Rained heavily and i was super drenched .
My jelly flew away . Ran in the rain . Fried mars balls .
Candy factory or whatever . Walk around and home by 6:30pm .
Awesome.Alot of funny photos , here (:

Monday & tuesday ,

Had Study camps from 8- 12+1pm respectively .
After school on monday went to bedok to take food and down to
downtown for Joey's birthday . Took nonsense pictures . Laughed my ass
boobs off every seconds on it . Make new friends . Alot of foods . Fanned the pit .
Slept at 3am . Snore queen . Who's the one who recorded my snores? First one to sleep .
Because of my snores, they slept at almost 6 am i supposed. hEEEE!
Tuesday came school almost late . took cab to school with the sleepover people .
We slept in class . Mrs raj get pissed . My body straight parallel to the whitebored
, writting something on the paper with my eyes close . Joe also . The rest all head on the
table . Super funny . Kimobaby fetch me and off to my house for some dvd .
And i almost slept . :D
Pictures here (:

I fucking love these two days .
And please, i hate teacher who being unfair . Bias .
Who loves to delay class and blame on others who are innocent .
_|_

Wednesday ,

Had a flag day . I was pissed when i get scolded .
Just at least a 1o cents , i just find it unreasonable when people
can't even donate a single cents for the poor people . yet they can scold .
But i had breakfast at macd. I finally had at it . Awesome.
But flag day was quite fun . like very fun la . chaotic babi .
Met yus and alep . Miss them ):
Had a short nap and kimobaby called and came down to 419
chilled with nina and nura and fie. Home at 8 plus pm .

Friday ,

I went to amk , met kimobaby for homework in the afternoon .
Slack with eicababy around 4 plus together with her friends.
Home around 7 plus and off to tuition. I had fun during tuition .
I laughed at my tuition teacher when she made mistakes.
How cruel could i be ?
So cute like oh my dior .
HAHAHAHA!

Saturday ......
today i had a bad day .
I think i shouldn't enclose it .
But i really had a bad day .
Tsk .

I eat so much this days . very!
Sigh . Dah la . aku takda mood .
And blog is being a bitch now .
Cannot upload photos .
I will upload soon . Take care babies .

You are 22 ? With your attitude ? Oh purlease . Look back to the mirror , baby (:

2010-03-13T07:06:00.001-08:00

Heys. I just came back from meeting KimoBby, Nina, Meh , reena, ,elfie , Fiqah and clans.
Kimo treated me something , thank you so much! :D Laughing gases here and there
and i walked off at 8pm . Reached home , nearly 10pm and ate briyani . HAHA!

Beforehand , i met grandmom and i kiss her. I get 10 bucks . Can i survive with that till ... tuesday ? Wah lao . fuck sia . no money . sibeiii . Urghhhhhhhh .
I'm super pissed off .

I'm just looking forward for tomorrow . I really want to dig out my accessories box ,
for my lenses. Over dead body to go out near town with many people , with my kental spec .
hahahahaa , Haiyaaaaaaaa . the thing is uh , my lenses all have expired sia . But i dont care . im washing them real hardcore . Nt going to wear my spec . wooohooo!
Wani macam pepek tak reply msg aku .
Sad sia , baru nak ajak die keluar . tsk

I'm bringing my 1-box-of-cosmetics, my 1-box-of-tons-of-nail-polish ,
I planned to makeover joey . HAHAHHA!
OMG! I CANT WAITTTTTTTT .

Not to forget . I miss my sayang , TEEQ .

I miss calling you dangdut . We had a lot of fun chatting before .
But since you have started working , its getting rare to talk to you .
Janji nak tengok alice in wonderland . Bila woi ?
Abeh janji nak blanja sri karaoke , lagu dangdut .
And you still promised me to go dangdut with me one day .
HAHAHAHA, k its our inside jokes uh . HAHAH!
I just miss that girl .
Meet up soon baby (:

Laughing gas.

2010-03-11T07:19:00.000-08:00

I was in Silence doesn't mean I lazy to entertain or antisocial .
I was occupied with ... this fucking one thing . Sighhhhhhhhhh .
I did not utter much . But deep inside my heart ,
i was hoping that ......... Urgh nevermind . I was just expected too much .
& my mind was full with ... money money money . I fucking need it .
I mean , if you have owned , like hello be responsible la please.
When it's wrongly transfered or whatever , you dare to maki maki
and like kind of wash hand ?

If it is my own money, with my own pain making it , I don't mind losing it .
Or give it . I won't be as chaotic as what it seems now . But it's from my mom
whom gave me upon her hardworks , hoping to see me in a good outfit again .
Well , tho i'm not from a rich family and live in a way that .. always have problems
over money , i still like .. find my own money and save my everyday-pocket-money
to pay my handphone bills , try to pay half of my tuition fee , all by my own . My mom
was down with fever and flu past days ago and i had a heart of bringing her to the doctor
despite of she wanted me to find new clothes.. I'm grateful on whatever i have now .

But it's from my mother seiii . I already felt the disappointment if one day she finds out .
Goddddddddddddddddddd . I'm in a verge of crying . It is such a .. wah lao idk uh .

Secondly , I am having , body aches . Like badly . i just ate panadol . And know what ,
i think im having slight fever . I was shivering while i was in the bus near 11 pm , when i
was back from tuition . my eyes were as reddish as the oozing blood . HAHAH! k mereps.
yea but just because i forgotten to bring along my eye drop , my eyes were so dry that
the pain was unbearable . Luckily there's no NPCC tomorrow , i can do my art for more
longer hours tomorrow , then go home , sleep ! Yaynesssssss.

3rdly , Im meeting cousin and Nenek on saturday . I AM VERRRRYYY LOOKING
FORWARD FOR IT OK! i miss my nenek . Long time never meet her .
Sunday ........ mondayyyy ....... tuesdayyyyyy . wa lao .
Super happy la ok for it ? (((:

4thly , I hate the loneliness i feel like now ?
I feel like hugging someone .
I felt like hugging someone just now .
Too bad i don't .
Sobs .

Da kepala da pening gile .
Nak tidu .
Selamat malam sayangs(:
Bye!

Tetek.

2010-03-10T07:12:00.000-08:00

Tengok la , asek dengar lagu baby baby , da kemaruh dengan baby .
Yea so far... I'm ... I'm okay with life now uh . I mean i am getting use to the fact that ,
friends come and goes and so is love , true love stays . So ... i had enough of all those nonsense .
I just let people lead their own way . I mean . What right i have to control over their life,
correct not ? Tsk . Anyway . School is beinng fucking awesome . I just love my classmates , okay ? They filled my laughter every now and then . I feel loved . I mean , the happiness regain . So then i realised , I need friends around me . The happiness i have been feeling is like .. so much different i had before . I just love them (: K shut up . HAHAHAHHA!

This sunday im having picnic with my 4c babygirls , This monday and tuesday upon the classes we had , we will be having class chalet too . Like ... monday after school , go chalet , overnight and go school together with my classmates . How awesomes . (Y) Life has been really good these days despite the heacy schedules . Really .

&I'm envy of people ... having holiday next wk . But i have to be in school for 3/4 DAYS . Like wa lao kan . sibei tetek betol . Okay la . Currently im talking otp with jay bulu . I better get going or she will never stop whining . Besok member nak belanja starbuck . HAHAHHA!

Baby baby (:

2010-03-06T10:30:00.001-08:00

Hi babies . I'm back . Firstly , sorry sorry for not updating much .
Well , i just had so much things in mind recently . I just had my .. Common test .
& Of cos i am halfly satisfied on it especially for my .. Social studies , the subject where i usually
obtained at least a pass on it . I just studied a wrong notes . tsk . But overall i did quite okay .
I think i have even improved my english . I will type my essay down later and tag me when you already read . Okay that's for studies. I was down with Common test fever and thus i never update much , so yeah (:

CCA? Sigh . I justt ..... don't know what to do say . my squadmates just don't understand me . I just don't feel at home whenever i'm with them . Just of a misunderstanding , they will start to blurt everything out from a-z . I mean , i have been observing them. Even one of my squadmates never come trainings or whatever , i never hear them , utter a word from them about him or her . But when it comes to me , i even heard that my friend overheard them talking negatively about me . I am unfairly treated you know .
i think SNCOs understand me better . Even the FOUs .
They console me whenever i was down on any trainings .
I never see any of my squadmates did that to me .
I mean like . I should receive those from my own squadmates . My SNCOs always said , speakup for yourself . I have . But it's true as what people says , be safe than sorry . All this while ,
I have never talk about my feelings up to the day we had camp and i just can't accept the way they labelled me , I began to lose respect to them . But by making the fire burning wasn't and never be my intentions . Even when the SNCOs and FOUs pointed out their mistakes , they still blame me . They just don't understand me . Just don't . People could just said . ala , you 4 years already mah with themmm . Just talk to themm laaa. you must be brave for the rights . and , alaaaa. another 1 or 2 months , you stepping down already mahhh , just be patience laaa.
I mean like , BE IN MY SHOES, THEY JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND .
I feel like crying while blogging about this .
While who cares anyways .
Sobs .

I miss ... ... K read eh . I miss this people . Read .

Zarifah .

I miss talking crap with you baby .
n/o level sumpah sucks man .

ikah/ash

i miss hanging out with them .
I miss talking to them .
I miss calling ash, dada .

Just because of a friend . I lost ash .
And because of ash , i lost ikah.
And that friend still got a cheek to ask her friend to sms me .
And that friend's friend still got a cheek to label me whenever and whatever she wanted
when she didn't know the truth .

Does they even realise that i just lost my two friends ?
Even when ikahh still want to talk to me .
But when ash told me to stop contacting with them ,
i reluctant .
Fucking inhuman .

Baby kaszt .

Where have you gone baby ?
I know i can only go to the extend where by i could only miss you
and that's that . Now that probably you're okay with girlfriend , doesn't mean that you
could dump me aside . This is very dissapointing .
I reread all messages sent by you since the day we got to know each other ...
they just left me with tears . But nevertheless, I hope you're happy with your current life now .
Should you need anyone to be there for you , you know i will never leave you (;
Nata(;

Tsk . But recently , this bunch of awesome friends will never fail to make me smile
whenever i'm with them . Nina, reena, erica baby , elfie, fiqah , chomel ,zac.
Whenever i have free times , they are the one whom i always meet .
I sings my heart out with them , xoxo and stuff . They just ... gerek .
& i swear i love them to the maximum core .

As promised , here's my essay .
I think i like my essay . Though i did not have a high marks .
But still i like it . HAHAHAH! K diam sri . (;
tag me ouh ouh (;

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Topic : Suggest some ways in which parents can spend time together with their children .

Quality time spent between parents and children are extremely important .
Along the way, the children may learn certain aspects in life and receive certain values by their parents. This also benefit their children to become a better person in future . We could see percentage of families scattered all over in Singapore , increases . For instance, the parents get divorce or their children get sent to a welfare homes . This is because their parents are too busy working and when the children get bored easily , they would intend to do negative crime actions such as smoking , shop-lifting and the most common crime teenagers have been doing currently , running away from home . Hence , communication is a need for every family .

They are some ways in which parents can spend time together with their children which is , to avoid working in long hours . As the children are growing , this is the time which they always need extra attention not only in moral values but attention for physical actions such as house chores especially for teenage girls , exercise or even by doing voluuntering work in our society will definitely give impact to their children . This is to ensure that their children will occupy their free times with effective works . In addition, the activities will not only benefit the children however they will feel loved and thus they will be comfortable to share their problems with their parents knowing that they will always be there for them .

Secondly , the parents may bring the children out of our local country to have holiday so that they will gain more experience from other cultures and religions of different countries . The best time for a family to have a holiday is during school holidays, probably for a week or two . Education is important but the children must not always get busy with school . They must also take a break on every semester breaks to spend time with family .

Last but not least , if both parents and children are extremely busy , once in a while
time the parents shall organize a mini picnic or just a simple dinner gathering with their children to interact with one another . It may not be an outing or activities which have lessons taught as i foremention above but little thoughts that count . The children will certainly appreciate the efforts and times given by their parents . Also , the children will still feel loved and cared .

Hence, in every family must have loves and tender given by one another . It only
requires sacrifices. However , it is better to give than to receive. Better be safe than sorry. Yes, money is emphatically important especially during the economic downturn that has been happening in our country now a days but could money buy love for a family ? I would say no . Therefore, to have a strong bond between a family , quality times are definitely important .

End (:

I should post this 3 days ago .
But i keep delaying .
heeeeeeee.
Bye!

$.$

2010-02-26T07:37:00.000-08:00

Oh first and for most , i received 100 bucks from my father .
Secondly , i passed my physic with flying bras .
Okay not flying la . At least a reasonable marks for ..
a person who got menses during that time . & i tell you uh , the
pain killed my energy and notes that i have noted in my mind .
Thirdly , I drastically feel the close bond in 4c . I like! I love my class . (:
Forthly , I won silver for Floorball team challenge .
I was so ... overwhelmed with the results and everything , my class just did their very
best . & the results were very awesome , really . I never expected to win 4a and 4d . Moreover when i heard , this year team challenge will be with Sec 5 . My heart skipped a beat and i was lack of self-confidence . I was moodless when i first stepped into the hall where the floorball held
with the atmosphere in it , it really kills my confidence of playing . I even let audrey took my place for first half round . Eileen the captain , announced that we will go against 4d . & i swear i felt like .... I don't know . Just too shock . Not ready initially . We called dania from netball and persuaded her to help us at least half of the first round . This had caused some misunderstanding of my class floorball and netball teams . but however , we would able to pull off our lackness in confidence . I replaced dania since she had to go for her match , I thanked her tremendously as if it's without her help , we would lost all rounds. Her readiness in everything just gained all my confidence to participate in every rounds . I admit i was violence and i shouted alot during , before and after game. I pushed and hit people's legs and stepped on people's legs and many many more . But still we won lor. The most memorable and funniest time was when i became the 'striker' for the final round , i accidentally fell on someone and landed on her leg and i managed to smack the ball in the goal . She is one of the Sec 5b's team. Wah lao . I dont know whether to cry or to laugh . Just so funny . But still we lost them lor. But we improved from Bronze to silver & I'm on seventh heaven .

Netball teams however did so much better than last year and they had Gold! I am happy for them (: Basketball ... sigh . I just find my teacher , unreasonable and very bias and veryyyyy idk . Just so cruel .

Anyways , the only thing i have been looking forward for this weekend is .. SUNDAY! I'm going to have fun with NINA BABY and AMIRA! I'm so not looking forward for tomorrow lor... wake up early and got competition . Sooo tired . Very shagged .

I think my art is very boring . Even myself don't see any excitement in it . But cher asked me to be independant . Yes i have been always be . But have you ever appreciate my creations ? NO! YOU EVEN FUCKING LOOK DOWN LOR! SIBEI . To be positive , I'm finishing it by this weekend too . I hope she could approve it agan .

& I miss my ex gf .
I still love her so much .
Fuck .

Single life . (:

2010-02-24T08:26:00.001-08:00

Currently ni fiqahh sayang outside . But just now i just had an awesome
talks with her all the way through msn . She made me laugh throughout the
conversation and certainly every words she said , just ticked me off .
So hyper tau gini nari , tak tau uh asal .
Dulu bobal macam nak taknak pon ade .
Skali bobal nari , menjeng tak habis2 !
HHAHAHHA!

Okay , i promised to her i will send her to work one day .
Since she stays near me . ((:

Ni lagi satu sayang aku . Nina! Hahaha .
beberapa kali nak jumpe tapi ada je halangan .
but thanks god we maybe meeting on sunday .
I feel honoured as she just said she's not coming to work on sunday ,
just to come down with us , and lepak . HAHAHAHA!
I think must be about me uh thats why she comes down . LOOL . Okay shush .
& I cant stop labelling her hot . Just the fact lor , can't resist . hahahahah!
Anyways , currently just missing her . So long never meet , like waliou~

Hope to meet soon okays ?
We play guitar , then you nyanyi, i record :D

Ni dua uh nari , ade sikit gile , tak habis2 nak sakat aku .
But however , thanks for making me laugh and forget about my problems .
Sayang you both , muah~

& I miss ikahh and ash .
Just cant stop thinking of them .
I hope they're doing fine . :(

Wake up sri .

2010-02-23T01:54:00.000-08:00

Currently I'm just feeling .... I don't know . All mixed up .
I tried and still trying to put aside all the bad feelings as i know ,
N level is no matter what , is my first priority .

I have put myself in a very big mess . Just because of a friend ,
I have lost 2 friends of mine , i dont have to mention name .
It's just too .. unexpected . I have lost a number of loveliess that used to
be the one who always be there for me , never failed to make me laugh.
How can i feel Okay ? I had a hard feeling the whole today . My mind
just into how to solve it , which i know there's no use , anymore .
I just hate the feelings . It stopped me from being happy and crazy everytime
and the worriness is undescribable .

I just need love and tender so that my days will be brought up happily
and thus i have the mood to do and end task given , happily without any ..
hard feelings . The wonderful feeling , you know? I know i must not forget
that i still have god and self-loves . I tried to be posiitive . Sigh .

I love school . I wish school will just keep rolling in my life without any pause .
But it will be better without studying Chey , ahah! But i just love my classmates
so much . They always 24/7 be there for me without any fail . I broke down early in
the morning and it's nice that i can hug several of my classmates . They're just , the best .
Wani , ardilla , joey , atiqah and alots more and also friends from other classes.
I just feel good around but when i reached home , i'm back to basis. I just hate it ,
i hate it so much . I still yet to study my social studies . But i still tossing around my bed .
Sigh sigh sigh .

"Life has no trial runs, no actions or practices. It's there and then, and everything just happens. "

I believe i have grabbed the lessons .
It just takes courage to move on .
another game that just keep going around and i
still end up with nothing but hurting .
I believe a normal human will only plan their life what they are going to be
and what they want to be . But god is the approver and will purposely test your
patience . & that's too i believe , god will never be a cruel that to see his own
creation , be melancholy all the times . I just want to be a strong girl .
As time goes , i shall accept the fact and happily move on .

But ,

What's the reason that has been hiding behind all this?
What ?

I have tuition soon , i better get going .
May peace be upon you .

2010-02-21T04:32:00.001-08:00

I wonder, when can i smile like that , again?
I cried several times today , and a whole night yesterday .
My friends called me stupid , i know . But i just love her so much can ?

I could tell my friends who's deadly in love and when their love has torn them apart ,
to move on and get yourself distracted with school and friends . Don't be in a one sided love
as it really do hurt the party which is deadly in love . & the other party , don't .

I wonder and wonder why i'm still trying to win her heart when we officially over .
Those sweet lil memories and things given by her just left tears .
061209 is officially over .

& I wonder why one of my classmates has been behaving strangely recently .
My brother too . & a whole lot of npcc .
I feel so empty .
So insecure .

However , little little friends of mine still never fail to be there for me .
Ikah , ash lambert , nina , joey , tipah .
They're the bestest . They're the stool for me to stand up and move on .
Which i hope i can despite the miss and a whole lot of love in my heart just for her ,
despite the hardness, when she has moved on , perhaps , i must .

:'(

One tetek , two tetek .

2010-02-15T04:40:00.000-08:00

My bitch cousin just left and i began to feel the loneliness, again .
Why those great moments fly quickly ?

:'(

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2010-02-14T10:14:00.001-08:00

13 February 09 ,

Lepak marathon all started at 12.30 pm where i have to pay something and i trained to
Sengkang and met Ikah/ash and ash's sister, pipit .
We sat around and laugh and sat and laugh and camwhored . More pictures at
here . It just my first meet with them and i enjoyed myself so much . But sadly ash had to go
early and .. we separated by 6++ pm .

Guess what they were doing ? HAHAH! Busted eh aku :P

At 6++pm , took 161 and bused to woodland met ...
....
........
HAHA, I MET IWANINA AND HER FRIENDS!
Omg , i never expected it gonna be so fun as i met , reena as well .
WHICH IS MY OWN EX SCHOOLMATE! omgg , and natrisya too!
She was there and i was abit shocked literally but i made more new friends upon them.
And camwhored again like super crazy la hor .
And it's sad to be the only one who melata .
They disturbed me like no one business tau . Kuangja .
Melata sampai nak bawak Peach tea bottle balek kau!
Nina da penat pon ketawe macam cacing beranak time tu . -.-

Reena , saya, nina and erica (:
Comel eh ? Haha, Ika, reena , nina , saya (:

Saya , trisya dan erica (:

Reena (:

Nina woots (:

Trisya (:

Erica (:

Got alot uh photos, A LOT (click here )
I was tremendously down with me and gf situation right now .
We just had so much problems these days . Too much therefore chose not to come to
school on friday . I had a very bad headache . I felt love afterwhich with my friends
telling me that they miss me in school and such . And also , a bunch of caring friends . They asked
me to come down and tried to cheer me up . I cant deny that till now i still down with it but
i just can't drag it on , i swear it takes gazilion courages to let bygones be bygones .
But also , i cant deny that upon the happiness and fun i had on sat , i still do miss my baby so much . My one and only . They asked me to move on and forget about you .
It takes an enormous step to move out your heart . I know i couldn't do .
Why ? I love you so much seh . I never love to break . I swear i feel like hugging you know .
I hope you're doing good in KL and i'll wait for you to come back , we will have a great
day on tuesday , god bless. I love you .

14th February ,

Happy Chinese New Year,
Happy Valentines day (:

I'm so shagged today and had difficulties to sleep the night before
that's why , my eyes were half opened during day time. Well , i felt lonely today as ..
i don't know . i envy my friends who have date . But i have to celebrate my valentines
with family . Well its not that bad if its with family . & it's not a big deal anyways .
I just hate the loneliness i had just now , it sucks .

I mentioned, it's not that bad if i celebrated it with my family right? Yeah . but it's bad to
have gathering to see your aunties fighting one another and it caused my other cousins
for not turning up . Me and my bitch , anza . We slept . Yes slept . Eh wait . before that we had a
double seats bicycle and thats the only thing which ticks me alot . I ate alot and i felt bloated .
Not ate alot but i drank alot . Went back at 6 an thought of going to ikahh/ash invitation to a
bbq pit at ecp . I was like wth when they were the one who asked me to join them but they hesitated to fetch me from changi . How bad .

& i still can't forget when ask texted me and asked me to delete her off from contacts .
I still wondering what have i done ? & she still owe me an explanation . Well now people happy ,
they just forget what they have done and don't care about other people feelings .
So unfair . I know we just had fun but i still dont get her .
SODEH TAU SAYA NYE LIFE.

But it's okay . not a really big deal but i'll stay patience,
tsk . Idk , just moodless these days . Everything gets irritating .
And that's too , my study .

I'm meeting joey tomorrow .
I better get some sleeps now .
Goodnights darlings.

2010-02-12T09:37:00.001-08:00

Hey babies. I miss my one and only baby so much .
Sigh . Just had a conferance with nina , reena , mus and iqa.
And i just made new friends with iqa and mus . And i feel blessed .
And i just bathed and scrubbed ups and downs tremendously .
and i feel so fresh now . So fresh that i think im going to sleep already
which i think i cannot sleep but i will still try to :/

I am suppose to wake up early tomorrow and im still up . tsk .
Ok i think i shall sleep now .
Goodnights ((:

_|_

2010-02-12T04:15:00.000-08:00

Muke aku yang ni macam nakkk...
nakkk... hahah! takpe , biar aku sorang je tahu . HAHA!
k diam .

Beforehand, happy 100th post my baby blog :D

okay &
I'm meeting this lovely couple tomorrow , ash and ikahh.
Ash aka ashlinda aka Dada. HAHAH! Okay diam .
Her friends are coming too and i wonder who .
So im going to pay some bills and off to sengkang then bedok to meet joey for my art stuff.
I just ...
can't wait for tomorrow as i know they're my laughing gases for now.
They always been there for me no matter how busy they are .
I'm so touch .

I currently still thinking on what contact lenses and clothes im gonna wear tomorrow
All has expired sia sibei. :(
And sorry if i can't lepak with nina and gang again tomorrow .
So bad sia , wrong timing . But i deadly want to lepak with her and the rest .
Perhaps they're my 2nd laughing gases group . HAHA!
Maybe one day , god bless.

I have 3 pits to be exact this week . 3 people invited me . How nice? (:
So much loves i received now adays when im down .
But nothing can ever compared my loves towards you baby .
I need you the most . :'(

I've been slacking in studies . And it's going to march , 2 months down .
And i still have not even halfly done my coursework .
Fucker.

Sayang sayannnnnng sayang (:

2010-02-08T00:13:00.000-08:00

Imagine if you came back from school and open up your refrigerator
and saw this two chocolate ? Not just one each but a packet each . wooo .
Eh eh eh , especially the one on top , toblerome . My favourite . Hahaha!

Personally i feel today school was totally a bore . Not even a single subject
ticks me . No . Hence i kept eating my durian sweets that made jolene felt irritated by
the smell , and there she whined again . Tsk . I still figuring on how to do my homeworks.
I just clueless on how and where to start first . I just too tired on everything and i just want to sleep . Luckily today Nina said she would not be able to come to tamp . Baru dapat tido . heehe heh! Oh did i tell you that speech day rehersals are coming up ? Tomorrow gonna be a 1st briefing and first training will begin officially on ... Thursday ? So it means , tomorrow to friday there will be straight npcc trainings , also , my time is going to be tighter . ))): & i'm just looking forward for .. thursday ? wednesday ? Cos i'm re-celebrating my 2nd monthsary and dinner with my baby darling sayang honey sweetheart cinta love selenger girlfriend and and and .... Gah! I just love her so much . I just want to spend my every seconds , minutes and hours with her . :o

And did i show you our photos last saturdays ? (: Here it goes baby :D

Cutekan dek ni makan muke die ? Abeh muke aku kan , die cucuk dengan candles kau!
Geram aje okay ! hahaha! ((:

Present and cake from me to her (:

Ni lah satu satunye ((:
Sayang dia sesangat sangat nye ,
taknak aku lepaskan die (:

Kay i nak tidor . apa apa text okay .
assalamualaikum ((:

2010-02-06T23:14:00.000-08:00

I could feel the faction in your love now . I wish i could
prove to you how much i love you in anyways i could within my means or
if it needs any sacrifices . But you keep letting the feelings fade.
I need you to know that you are my everything , dari Dulu dan Selamanya .
I know i have hurt you so much . But you too have hurt me deeply .
I have said sorry and promise to change eitherways . I just need times .
I still not giving up in you and still trying to prove to you how much i love you .
I deadly hope you can see that but it hurts me when you don't see and labelled me
negatively . The plan has cocked up and you're the last one which at least i could
depend on but you choose to go out with your classmates when you know i needed you
the most . I'm very disappointed . Very disappointed .

You always pointed out my mistakes . But do you see yourself in a mirror ?
Sigh . I hate to give up in love . I hate to be a failure .
I just love you so much .

Nevertheless, happy 2ndmonthsary baby .

:'(

2010-02-05T06:45:00.000-08:00

I hate it when depression occurs when my veins started to shake
and so my whole body . And things will get destroyed . When i said ,
I have depression , and will be violence if i am too tense or sad,
most will never believe me and thought i'm a childish .
I hate the feelings . Who doesn't ?
I just need people to understand me ,
to care and concern .

I hate being depressed.

Pardon my rudeness.

2010-02-05T01:42:00.000-08:00

It is on a verge of failing and i swear it sucks to fail when you were way hoping
superbly high , as high as seventh heaven for a huge success .
Nevertheless i know myself best , God too that i have been putting my
100000 percent efforts on it . I was extremely devastated with
each and everyone of you . I am. That's why my feelings were uncontrollable .
I am sorry if i was rude to anyone of you all . I did not mean to .
I just wanted this and really wanted it . I thought i could do this .
Well , acceptance seems and easy things to do . But I have to
put gazilion courage on myself that i have to accept the fact that
things will never go in a right path or in another way , will never go
on my own way .

Ya allah , hope you sympathy on me and give me gazilion strengths .
Amin .

Tiring moments .

2010-02-04T00:25:00.001-08:00

I know it has been almost a week since i last updated .
My yesterdays were extremely tiring and time was badly managed too .
Too much things needed my attentions . I tried to stay focus . I am grateful that
the strengths given by God had brought me up to this day .

However , I personally feel devastated for not attending the four-years-once-camp .
On one hand, I have let my squadmates down for being irresponsible by not coming .
But in another hand , I was terribly sick . I could only afford rolling and tossing around
the navy blued bed . I received a text from one of them , and was announced a massive
number of assumptions. Well, in a first place , i didn't ask for sickness neither hoping for it .
It's my first time handling camp with you all , why must i escape from it ? Moreover , we had been through those stress feelings together before . Why must i escaped? Please think again . Later i asked my brother to handle them . I could not even utter words properly due to my tonsils and fever . It was really a killer . I was shocked by hearing those of what my brother
said . I was easily thrown by those words of .. " She didn't do much . " etc . Let me stated this that i came for every camp meetings and my asst.logistic partner wasn't there, always due to his
holiday trip . Well upon all this , you should never only depend on me since there's another logistic person . Nevertheless if you all said that i didn't do much work , why you all were looking for me ? Doesn't it makes sense? Well . I still wondering why you all were so inhuman . Yes, inhuman . I just hate my squadmates . I am very eager to step down ^^ .

I am literally catching time to do some preparations for tomorrow Np and other stuff .
Well though i just noted that i hate my squadmates, but dont get me wrong , i was just
attending for attendance wise . More specifically , cca points. hahah! Talking about tomorrow,
I'll be having staff sergeant test tomorrow . Wish me luck! Eventhough i have not started study for it . eheheheh!

I better get going .
Or before i left , i would like to share with you this video .

This is so funny la please!
HAHA!

My so called 'new' friends and i love them so much x3

2010-01-29T07:54:00.001-08:00

Iwanina .

I pity her cos i mistook her name as yonina .
She jokes alot with me although my jokes will always be a 'whatever' to her .
but she still nice to me (:
sorry if i rejected your invitation to come down to bedok
to hang out together with your friends . I still feel bad ):
nevertheless , i hope you enjoy your day , with out
without me , my handsome blue eyed girl . HAHAHA! :D

Heikel .

This one always got problem with love . always . hahaha!
but still she's nice to me .
Care alot about me and never fail to be there for me
whenever i need her ((:

Teeq .

aka minah dut and the most popular girl
in pizzahut at woodland near 800 + there, HAHAHAHHA!
I love this picture cos it dispicts a million words.
She knows i know . i shall not tell others . :P Anyway . this girl really had a great
sense of humour and always also be there for me whenever i need her .
maybe not always but she never fail to give me a good and a long advice and make
sure that things are alright at least . How great ? :D

+++++

It's nice to have friends around .
and i guess it's nice to declare who our friends are.
i know words can't be compared on how much loves i love my friends.
But they are what i need now :(

On a lighter notes , my classmates are missing me .
My teachers too . *winks*
I'm so honoured to be missed by countless of peoples :D

Review baby!

2010-01-28T09:11:00.001-08:00

It's 1.14 am now and i am still wide awake .
So many things in mind right now .
I feel like doing a review between a girl and boy .
I like girl more . Have you ever wondered, why ? let me tell you a story .

I just played net games minutes ago and it was interrupted many times from my 'ex' .
The ex is a boy literally and perhaps he just gotten a new computer thats why
after so long he didnt online , he just online yesterday or maybe the past two days ?
I don't know . I can't remember . Oh well . He kept askking me for webcams and said he miss
me much . I gave him reasons because i lazy to entertain him . I thought he would understand .
but no . the understanding will only last for a few MINUTES . and afterwhich , he would send me invitations for webcam again. Irritating much ?

He kept pastering me to talk to him over the phone and i can't talk much due to my tonsil .
Apart from it , i was lazy to talk to him . Cos everytime we on the phone before, he would cry and
beg for my arrival in his heart again . I mean like . Please la . We used to be together before, have you ever treated me nicely before ? We even patched . You still yet to learn so much things . I don't see any progress in yourself . How could i even trust you again ? To be honest . I even lazy to entertain you as friends cos you will never grow up . It has been nearly 3 years . 3 years . You even had a gf before this . And you still said , you cant even forget me ? I mean like , what you guys really want ? So fickle minded .

Maybe it's right , teenagers now adays , do not know what they really want in life . They have been taking life for granted . Am i right ? Mostly guys . Let me list down what i ~~hate~~ dislike about guys and what i like about girls? *winks*

Guys .

They are fickle minded .
They intend to be childish at most times .
They are lazy .
They are clueless on how to french kiss .
(making me so super extremely tremendously veryyyy disgust)
They doesn't know how to handle problems at time .
They like to show off that they're attach but they can't work on their role as a boifee.
They intend to take love for granted/always mistook the word 'love' as 'lust'
They LOVE to escape from love problem .
They LOVE to take short cuts .
They HATE girls crying . To them , girls crying is irritating .
They can't appreciate love or girls .
They LOVE to force what other people dislike to do . ( and when we already said we don't want , they will said things like .. Oh .. who am i to you righttt ... all those bloody shits . )
Their ego will get high as they get angry .
They hate to talk and settle problem . To them , by shouting vulgars and anger can settle problem (Y)
They always want to have fun . But they suck at serious time . (When we need them in bad times , they always give reasons such as .. busy etc. But when we want to enjoy , they will be #1 to come ) Ridiculous much ? Yea i know . But it's reality .
They don't care much about their appearance . I'm not trying to be high manteinance but
i believe everyone wants to look tidy at least . But as what i experienced , some of them , don't care at all.. )
They have bad time management .

to them , void decks are cool . ( Hell no . )
They are petty .

However... boys have also its good side and that is ..
......
Actually nothing uh .
I don't think i have some 'like' in boys .
They are sooo irritating to me , seriously .
Tskk.

Girls.

They're good at appearance .
They're more understanding . (I can share most of my problems with them therefore you see me hardly with guys . ^^)
They're good french kisser with soft lips .
They have good time management .
They respect us. (when we say .. we hate people to say vulgars , they will respect it even though saying vulgars have become a habit to them )
They can be with us through good or bad times .
They appreciate loves more .
They're a good advisor and great ear listener.

However girls also have their bad sides too .
As for me , i think ......

Their pms every month sucks man , (me also uh haha!)
Girls can be irritating as to me ... they love to add in tagged or facebook or EVEN MSN ,
BUT THEY HARDLY TALK!
Girls can be very clingy .

Ok i think im done .
Tag me if you support my post .
Lets do some marches here baby! HAHAH!

Viviem .

2010-01-27T22:40:00.001-08:00

I had an amazing day yesterday . Certainly there's a bitter to it
as Viviem is going away to Sydney for study . Perhaps she's in plane now .
Or already arrived .. We threw her a mini party yesterday . See the frame up there?
It was done by me :D I know it's messy and ugly uh . But the thoughts that count mah .
We took alot of photographs . We had JCO doughnuts which i finally could eat again .
I miss JCO . Tsk . We stole packets of crackers . And i took Calbee . (Y)
And i hope she will succeed one day , all the best for her future in Sydney
and you know even though i don't really close to you .
But im sure of one thing that i'm gonna miss you alot .
& I love you so much (:

I'm gonna miss you saying , "Hi sri! (smacking _ _ _ _ _ ) "
I'm gonna miss your irrtating voice that always get into my nerves .
I'm gonna miss you smiling and your laughter .
I'm gonna miss you giving me chewing gums .
I'm gonna miss you talking to me .
I'm gonna miss you hugging me when we're bored .
And many many more .
Sobs .

Today I'm on MC . And also , tomorrow .
I'm having high fever and tonsil .
I will post about this soon .
My eyes are heavy now due to the medications i had earlier on .
I better get some sleep again .
Toodles :)

I love shello so much . Very very very much .

2010-01-26T07:03:00.000-08:00

It's 2303 now .
I still holding a pen now and let it fly over my paper .
My brain is half dead and also my eyes are half opened .
I just asked mummy to cook for me campbell chicken mushroom soup .
I am still forcing myself to stay awake and finish up all tasks given
despite the sickness . May god bless me .

& I already missing Viviem . :\

Chakk! :D

2010-01-26T00:35:00.000-08:00

23rd January 10 .

Feverish feeling and started to have flu . Certainly , it get worsen now .

Coughing not bad but my migrane and running nose are killing me .

That was a part of my reasons for not attending the HRC course .

Secondly , when i heard that HRC was around the corner and later Sharifah

with her fiery looks, tap my shoulder in the canteen and said to me , there's HRC

on this coming Saturday . I left my mouth wide open . I could feel my bottom jaw was dropping

without forces. My legs wobbled as i stared my friends blurly .

Well only god knows how scared i was.

I took medications and nap while waiting for my parents to get ready . Also for my brother

to reach . I planned to treat them seafood for dinner. It didn't turn so good initially but

as soon as the food arrived, i could sense some happiness in them as shown from their smiles.

They smiled gleefully . I thanked God numerous times as God has made me strong to face all

obstacles that happened a year ago .

I still laugh like crazy whenever after i looked at the photos when my mom

was trying to mimick my trademarks faces .

HAHHA!

+++++++

31st January 10 .

These two events clearly explained how awesome my weekends were.

It was drastically spent with my loves one . One word, awesome .

Sunday i woke up early as early as 11 am . I bathed and grabbed my creamy butterfly top

and white-striped 3 quater shorts . After I satisfied with my appearance , I bused to woodland .

Baby created a smile on my face by saying that I looked superbly beautiful . I was 'wow' . Haha!

Supposed to meet Syiqin at 2 but we changed plan to head to Fie's house and we studied bit . Fie's cooking was awesome . She made me appreciate fishes more . I bought Florida's Natural like finally . It still taste delicious . We stayed around till 4 pm and snapped countless of photographs. Those are just a bit . Lazy to post . Later we met Syiqin at causeway and gossip (?)

It was really sympathetic to face a person with the problematic looks . Luckily there's baby to pacify her. I felt blessed when she smiled. Since Syiqin wanted to meet her friend at Tampines,

We took the same bus and xoxo with baby . Baby left to catch her bus to be back home .

Syiqin told me that by meeting us on that day , something happened on that night

and she jumped with joy and excitement .

And also , she loves us .

Awwwwh . (:

That weekends were really amazing . I was on a cloud nine together with

baby and friends AND FAMILY!

I love my family .

I love my baby .

I love my friends .

& i love myself .

Thank God .

All the way sri!

2010-01-18T06:14:00.001-08:00

Awww, so cute . I'm all the way with ~~Florals~~ Shells now .
With the ideas i have thought of literally made my entire day .
It also motivated me to finish up all homeworks given .
I have Maths extra lessons tomorrow .
I am asking extra classes too on thursday .
Maybe after Malay extra classes, i will go for that extra classes.
Provided if i was chosen , hopefully .
Target to get at least 4 A1s for N level including O maths ,
just like how my brother did years ago .
I believe if he could , i can . And i will . (Y)
may peace be upon you baby.

Life isn't always about a bed full of roses .

2010-01-17T04:02:00.001-08:00

First and formost , the gift is inspired by eqa .
HAHA, I saw her taking out this colourful book and i thought that it was cool .
So i made for baby :D Awwww. It written on the coverbook , 1st Monthsary Story .
With pictures all over , woo gelek~

Everything was done till 1400 . I was kind of late literally and had a quick bath
and slight make up, bus-ed to interchange and find cough medicine and lozenges at guardian
then bused to woodland . Met baby and off to civic centre and slack there about half an hour then i had to go home early as my family wanted to have dinner at mahmood rojak . Gerek . Despite the fact that i wasn't feeling quite well , i managed to finish up my red fried rice and half of the rojak appetitely . :D

& while i was on my way in the bus towards the Tampines Library , mummy texted me
and said , she's gonna be late as grandmom was warded due to some operation that have to be done . My mom said it is critical . I hope the operation will go on smoothly .

& when i reached home , I looked at both faces of Bro tasya and Bro kak shai , emo . I asked why ? Bro just met an accident . A minor one uh . But the other party's vehicle was badly damaged and my brother was to pay every single equipment that is damaged . Luckily no police involved .
I pity him alot , alot . I hope he will face trial with determination and heart patient. I'm proud of you bro . I'm proud that you didn't get mom/dad involve in this with your great intention .
May god bless you double the happines . :(

Tomorrow school starts , ouh ouh .
It's gonna be packed with extra classes!

May peace be upon you .

Temporary satisfaction.

2010-01-14T07:42:00.001-08:00

Before i go to sleep .. let me recap what had happened today .
What i know .. i was really angry with someone due to something .
My laughters and smiles were all fake . I forced myself as i don't wish anyone to
know it . I rather book everything in a heart. The reason is simply , I know nothing gain
and i know the burning of the fire will get bigger indeed.
But i was so devastated . I texted Joey even though i was just a few
distance away from her and hugged her.
I'm glad we're close now . If not , my past would occur which i hope for this year,
I don't want that to happen . Until up to this second , I still feel sad about it .
In fact it already begun last year . I just kept quiet .
I know it's stupid la . But it's better to be in this way and slowly forget
rather than fighting which takes place . Luckily i could cntrol my anger .
Not only Joey tho , i am still grateful that i have awesome friends around me .
Dania , Eleanor , Mr Gazali (which literally made my day ) .

Let's stick on this topic . I was supposed to post about it earlier on as i couldn't control the anger
anymore. But .. i dilly dally tossing around my house. Played guitar fuck hard . And sang
my heart out . I felt much better later . Soon , i ate . My mom bought me again , 2 takayaki balls.
Splendid isn't it ? I played guitar again . That time , i played "Rahsia Cinta " as I miss baby so much . I am meeting her this Sunday . Peace . Rolled around my mom's bed and slept till 7 plus and proceed to art and physics.
I am sleeping soon , i promise.
Die hard i won't sleep at 1pm , i hope .

++++

It , I fucking don't care about your condition now cos i know it's so fake .
Fucking fucking fake .
I have researched about it .
Sooner or later i know you will be like your past , double than the past .
Stop bratting or look down on me . It is so depressing and disheartening .
At your hard time before,
i don't brat nor exaggerating . Look at yourself in a mirror .
I HOPE YOU WILL . reflect . The mirror perhaps is not enough for you kan ?
Cos you are all way up high from the fact . Too over the moon therefore you forgotten
about other people feelings .
I pity you lah it . really .
May god 'bless' you baby .

I finally contacted back with filiana .
I feel blessed. (Y)

& i love shello very much .
till then ,
may peace be upon you .

ps: I believe i am a strong girl if i ain't strong , i would throw everything up .
Just like what i did in those days .

FOOD OH FOOD! :D

2010-01-12T23:48:00.000-08:00

Hey babies . I currently waiting for my mom for food .
I am damn hungry . So hungry . :/ I told her to buy for me ,
2 boxes of tokoyaki (chicken hams ) , 1 chicken ramlee burger and hotdogs .
Wah , my area is having food bazaar. How can i lose weight , you tell me ?
So tempted .

School is , okay . Maths is doing so well . and so my art . (Y)
I am not really stress now but i am having self-dissapointment.
I began to be lazy again . I eat eat eat and sleep sleep sleep .
I even decrease my time for self-study everyday , recently uh .
I just had cca Sec 1 orientation and alot of things and devastated
moments happened few days back . Although I .. I didn't go for the
actual day , i still turned up for every trainings straight from tuesday to
thursday last week and i swear i was damn tired . At the same time ,
I was angry .

History was okay . At least i understand a bit . I was on cloud nine when
i saw my name on the screen , i am under Mr Danial class . (Y)
He is so much better than my last year teacher . But hey . I thought his
teaching is gonna be the same , but all those lessons proved me wrong .
He teaches the same way as my last year teacher . How saddening .
But it's okay . At least he made the effort to make the lessons interesting and understandable...
I may understand bit but not all . I have to work on it .
Is there still hope for humanities?

However , I will never give up .
I can't always dream to get at least a B3 for humans .
We are on earth now, time is real i have to work inorder to achieve it .
And i musn't let anything destroy my goal .
My goal is already there, if last year i could achieve top 25 percent ,
this year , to achieve top 10 percent , shouldn't be any problems .
Not only to me , but to everyone . Let this post be an encouragement or motivation . :P
Provided you stop the habit to become lazy and keep on trying .
If all my sec 5s' and sec 4s' friends could do it , i personally don't find any reasons
for us not to be able to do it . If there's a way , there's a will .
From the start of 2010 , I have buried down this deep in my heart .
Get into sec 5 with amazing points , make parents proud . (:
Okay enough .

Anyways, my whole of next week is occupied with extra classes and remedials .
My schedule is getting tighter now ..

I better get going .
My food is here. Yayneessss!!
maypeacebeuponyou .

Love you .

2010-01-09T21:59:00.000-08:00

Hie babies.
Let this be short okay ??

Firstly , i went to NYP and i will upload the pics soon .
I think i'm into this course, social sciences. Okay not uh ?
HEE .

Pardon the last pic. I was burping
when baby took my picture! grrr .

actually got alot of pics uh . But the rest all like .... tsk . ha!
Meet baby yesterday like finally . waited fr her for 1 hour . (Y)
Rounding rouunding awhile at vivo and ate LJS . Packed our food and sat at the roof top.
Camwhored abit and met syiqin , baby's friend . Made new friend .
Best kan? :D So .. we talked2 .
Perhaps this gonna be the last time i meet baby till 30th Jan .
How sad? Imagine , 20 days . Darn .

Okay , its okay , i have to adapt to it .
Adapt to it .

I love you babe .
I enjoyed my day with you ,
Thanks for your time .
I love you so much .
xoxoxoxoxo.

Anyways. Joey is coming to my house later for some art and homeworks.
Well i hope we do lor. Not playing a fool . :D
She's having tons of probs now . I hope things will get better for her .
:(

I better get bathed now.
Tada!

May peace be upon you.

Cinta cinta tak habis habis . :P

2010-01-09T19:56:00.000-08:00

I love you handsome x3
Let's have fun today baby!

2010-01-07T05:21:00.000-08:00

Stop talking about your bloody gf/bf .
Cos i'm fucking envy due to how much misses i miss my own gf !
YES. I MISS SHELLO !

:'(

Happy to sad , to worse . I am having mix emotions .

2010-01-06T04:14:00.000-08:00

First day was awesome . i was so eager to go to school , seriously . Despite of the retardness , I managed to gain confidence against my new looks and the big sleeves uniform with my skirt kept
sliding downwards. I was in high spirit when i met my normal horny classmates , Joey , Dania , Wani , Weiqiang, Tongjuay . Sadly Chiachia wasn't there. I wonder where he has gone . I miss him already . Up till today he still doesn't turn up . Oh . Mrs Raj wasn't there too . :(( Besides meeting my friends , i was so eager to start new topics as well . I am glad that my all the teachers that i hate , change. Nice right? So that gain alot more confident to fight all the way to N level! Awesome , bloody awesome . (Y)

That clearly explains , i love school so much .
Hey . But CCA seriously piss me off recently .
I will edit this post again .
What i can only say is ..
I had a rough day since Tuesday till today and this will never end as long as i step down
from my bloody CCA . Thanks god i still standing strong after 3 years and still standing strong .
It getting into my nerve when i see everyone attitudes.

Today is an important day. You know i know , i shouldn't say .
But it's my first time not going out with someone when it's monthsary time .
No matter how busy i am .. i wish i could spend time with you .
But it's okay . I don't want to complain , neither to be sad .
This is life, people is getting busier .
You have your own life too , your friends .
I have to however , adapt to it .

Happy 16th birthday umaimah ((:
Im sorry for not being there with you on your birthday
But i will promise that i will be with you some day .
You know me . Tho i always the latest one to give present or wish ,
You are still in my mind without fail . And i will never forget your birthday .
May you have a great day with your loves one .
I love you~ :D

Hi 2010!~

2010-01-01T21:24:00.000-08:00

Cute kan baby ? :P

Okay let's start with a proper post .
Literally , I have many things to talk about since it has been so long since i last updated . I have booked all of them in my mind but this time , I am gonna post all of it in one go . First and formost , of cos , Happy 2010 ((: A new year, a new book , new resolutions . In this 2009 , I have learnt alot and along the way , of cos there are tons of ups and downs that i faced . I feel grateful that i still standing strong facing those problems and also for the lil lil great moments with the loves ♥ . But i believe as what yusry always remind me .. In every path we take , there will be obstacles , we can run from fate . I think i am so much ready to face 2010 , a brand new year . All thanks for everyone who was there to motivate and guide me along every path i chose , who also made me to become a better person for future . Tap my shoulder hard again , 2010 gonna be a tough year , N level . A disaster year. I also learnt alot from baby . No use if we keep on whining and whining but nothing produce.It was one of my habits in 2009 . So i really want to change this year . See, i told you , I have learnt so much things from baby tau . She also taught me to be a hardworking girl in terms of housechores. Thats why i love her so much ♥

This is my resolution and hopes for this year .

○ To be a successful birthday planner for baby's birthday .
○Have a sweetest 16th birthday ever .
○Do well for N level , get to Sec 5 .
○ Work .
○ Great time management between study and relationship .
○ Stop being lazy , do housechores whenever i am free.
○ Help mom at all times .
○ I hope i can gain the habit of cooking . (Hopefully)

In terms of mental ,

○ Be more mature .
○Explore alot more about life .
○More socialise.
○Be strong to accept all obstacles.
○ Not get angry always .
○More independant .
○ Be happy always .
○ Be optimistic at all times .

In terms of relationship

○ Nothing much for relationship .. Stay strong in all moments .
○ Cherish baby and relationship . ♥

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Since 2010 is gonna be a tough year for me , I have to adapt to it by hook or by crook as i can't be the old me anymore . With the old me , I know i can't succeed .
Every mistakes and problems i believe , it makes myself be more mature in life .
Not to give up is a basic belief for everything we do . Life however has to move on . (:

Enough of my new year speech .

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On a different note, my 1st monthsary with baby is coming up . But baby was in a fear that we got something on since we already starting school .. She came my house on the 30th . She gave me a necklace. How sweet ?

Sometimes i wonder.. why i didn't meet her years ago ? We fought numerous times recently .. And i think back again .. She has been trying so hard to please my heart . But i took it for granted where i shouldn't . Upon this new year, I really want to change myself and make everything into a better situation. I want to be happy and everyone happy . Thanks baby for everything , I love you so much , kisses. Happy 1st monthsary ♥

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I have another great story . I had a bad birthday this year . I have told you kan ? Worse birthday i ever had . Zarifah was always there to be my listening ear .. always . And she said .. Don'tworry , i will give you something special at the end of this year.. well initially i thought she was just make up story to make me calm . But hey . I really received something from her! Kay i woke up at 1300 . I wanted to post something in my blog then i received a msg from zarifah to meet her at 1430 . Thus i post abit late , sorry .. Finally i get to eat ROJAK! The food that i have been wanting for weeks! I envy when everytime umaimah talked to me about ROJAK . I feel like bashing the laptop . HAHA, reallyyyy .

She gave me a CD with a birthday card . I have uploaded the video .
This is it .

I feel so loved today . So much love . Thanks baby , zarifah and the rest . You guys had left me a great beginning of 2010 . I love you guys so much! ♥♥

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Okay , i am currently admiring my blog . What do you think ? Nice ? HEHE .
I spent hours to find a new skin . Totally a new skin but not even one i fond of .
Instead , after the clock had striked , 2300 , I made up my mind to just renovate this skin .
It has been so long to have something like this . So nature-like . I like (Y)
Okay , I better get going . Mummy has been calling for laundry!
Till then ,

may peace be upon you ♥

JONGENNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGG!~

2009-12-27T01:18:00.001-08:00

Yooooooooo . I am so happy today . Cos though i slept late ,
Bytheway i slept at 0600 . I woke up at 1500 . I had a full 9 hours sleep
thus i don't feel any headache . In addition , baby and i was in a good condition ytd
and today too .. I am so happy . Pheww~ Okay the reason i slept late is because ..
I am having PIMPLE at the side of my nose and it is swelling . Due to the swell , I had difficulties
to breath through my nose when i wanted to sleep .. So i nevertheless had to breath through my mouth . I snort uh . Snort like a wildboar ~ But the swell get better after i boiled the water with salt and depth onto my nose . It was painful you know .. Okay despite the nice 9 hours sleep i had , my beautiful sleep was disturb by this call , Fatin . She said the Log list have problems and maam asked ME to edit again and send again . I was like !#$@#$@$$%. Okay it's okay . I hope it will only abit uh . I yet to open up my email to receive the log list back .

Anyway .

I just bath and it is like finally .. I didn't bath ytd and i also had a thought not to bath today as well . Hah . I LAZYYYYYYY LAAAAAAAAA . I HAVE BEEN ROTTING AT HOME LIKE A WILD BOAR AND SNORT LIKE A WILD BOAR AND SLEEP AND EAT AND SHIT AND EAT AND SLEEP LIKE A WILDBOAR TOOO . But alhumdulillah god had opened up my heart to let me carry my big butt to the toilet . -.- I currently combing my hair and comb comb . I love my hair cos it's healthy even though i hated the hairstyle . -.- Hahah! I just had a compliment from anza that my hair is very healthy . And aunty just comment my face is so clean and white . I am going against the pimple to fight with it and hope that everything's back to normal . JONGENNNNNNNNGGGG .

K , back to basis , I'm hopping back to art .
No more hikmah please? Why eh ?
I 've been watching the whole season 2 again and again! K enough .
Seriously enough . I have to get back to art .
Oh , i still yet to buy my new bag and shoe .
I am envy that people is buying those school accessories .
While i rot at home even when i already gotten the money .
I am just simply lazyyyyyyyyyy ,
K la , till then .

May peace be upon you .

Don't go , you're what i am needing most , shello .

2009-12-26T07:46:00.000-08:00

Baby , I'm glad that we are fine now .
I love you so much , so much .
Hugs and kisses .

*Kiss at forehead*

I want you here beside me , dont go , please don't go .

2009-12-25T09:48:00.000-08:00

I have been trying so hard to please you .
Yet I am label with those words . I don't
espect any repay . I don't . I only want happiness
care and concern consistantly . I don't ask much .
You asked me to change . I have been trying .
And i keep trying . But yourself ? Look at yourself ,
in the mirror , ask yourself . Have you changed too ?
Yet you had a cheek to take an easy way to escape
from the problem we are facing . Why ? You weren't
like this before. You promised to me you will not raise
your voice to me . Yet a small matter , you yelled .
I can't accept those labels you labelled me earlier on .
It was too hurtful . Do you know that it really hurt me ?
It even affect my pride . Do you even see yourself ?
I never label you cos i respect you . I just simply point out
if there's any mistakes made by you . But you , when you pointed out,
I even admit my mistakes and said sorry . But those labels made me feel
as though I have been too much for you . Seolah-olah engkau mengungkit kisah lama .. hatiku retak seperti kaca dihempas .

~~Susah senang , kita bersama .~~

Bullshit .
Now, who is the weak one ?
Me or you ? If i am a weak girl , labelled by you ,
I would escape and leave you .
I don't . I still make the effort to please you .
Can't you see I am trying ? I was hoping for some good thing back .
Happiness . But i was on a cloud 9 that my hopes were really high .

Masa susah kite berpisah ; bercantum pula tatkala masa senang .

Anyway . I'm sorry to say this
I didn't mean to be petty or .. troublesome . I am just letting out my feelings .
Letting out feelings .. i hope it doesn't mean to you that i am weak.
I am just too scared of losing you . I detest to see our love slowly fade .
I have noticed this changes from the start of the day we were officially , together .
I am just trying to work out the solution for every obstacles.
I believe that every problem will make us learn something thus the fire will keep on burning .
Hence you , im needing the most . Yes you. Do you realise?
I wonder how can you have the guts to leave me alone , no matter
how long you want to leave me , you have the guts to
let me be alone settling all this problems .

"Ya allah... cekalkan la hati hambamu ini untuk
menghadapi segala rintangan yang melanda ..."

I'm never gonna say goodbye
Cos I never wanna see you cry
I swore to you my love would remain
And I swear it all over again and I
I'm never gonna treat you bad
Cos I never wanna see you sad
I swore to share your joy and your pain
And I swear it all over again

This is how I want us to always be.

2009-12-21T04:58:00.001-08:00

" In your arms where love and dreams are fulfilled with loving care,
With you an era plus a lifetime more to share.
Never has love been so perfect and filled with sweet tenderness,
I only wish for our happiness.

You and I were meant for each other in so many ways,
To love and fill each others lonely days.
You will always be with me in all the things I do,
And my darling, I will always, yes always love you........ " - Renee Womble

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I had a bad night yesterday. I was scared to sleep because the image just can't get off my mind.
I had a miscommunication again with baby . And i am deadly confuse . She's currently in camp , I am wondering , what is she doing now .. I miss her already . I am picking her up from her school and i will have dinner with baby and faaaaaaarshyyy (: Hehe . She is baby's friend and we just know each other . But it is like i have known her since years ago :/ Anyway , back to the topic , I slept at 6.00 am and i woke up at 12.39pm . I promised Xinyi to call her at 11++ yet I woke up late and my head was in a great spun too . I ate extra panadol and nevertheless i had to finish up the tasks given. I was to do Budget and Logistic lists , Thanks god i have emailed it to the camp chord . I have done it! All i will pray for is success , for the camp upon so much efforts we have been put in together . *wide smile* I was wide awake after i ate the panadol . Yuyu online and we talked till night >.< So crazy . In a midst of it , I have been eyeing for this bag at RipCurl , I kept blabbering to mummy about it and she finally said YES . Hopefully there's the stock that i have been wanting . I'm buying it tomorrow and afterwhich i will train down to woodland to baby's school and give her hugs .:D Okay . I want find pictures again for art . I have been lazy again thus i must give a tight slap to my butt and get my work done . Charlo beteh and assalamualaikum ((:

Ps: My mom bought me a packet of Dynomites Peppermint Chocolate Sweets
and i love her truckloads. :D

I miss you .

2009-12-19T00:32:00.001-08:00

(click to enlarge)

Hahaha! I love you la .
Geram siak ngan kau .

Baby, you are missed .

2009-12-16T05:46:00.000-08:00

Holiday sucks man .. art art art maths maths maths.. I miss hanging around with this friends . I donnoe why but i feel like giving away some small sweety notes for this people . First i miss is ..

Zarifah.

You are my top 1 person i miss! :D
I miss your jokes. I miss your hugs .
You are my laughing gas .
I miss having awesome outings with you , camwhore.
Gossips and laugh laugh laugh .
We have planned alot of things during our holiday .
Unfortunately , time doesn't allow us to meet perhaps .
But remember , i always remember you . You always missed by me .
Do well in your O next year! Takmo ingat pasal 'Kabadi' sangat eh . hee!

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Filiana (Phyl) .

We have not be meeting for months . You are my top 2
person whom i miss . You have been making empty promises .
After O level .. You promised. I been waiting for your calls and texts .
But nothing . Then I heard you are in relationship , and your gf is controlling you
over your hp or whatever thing . You busy with your band stuff .
I can't deny that i was really downcasted when i heard
it . We planned an outing to catch up some things.
We was quite close before .. We texted often and jokes about .
You teached me maths . Thankful for that . I really hope you can get back to me .
You always be in my prayer .

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Cuz Anza.

How i wish i can go out with you at least once in my holiday .
To have a splendid outing with you . We have planned many stuff too
during our holidays . I wonder if you remember . When you said that .. I'm a clingy
to you when we are close, when I wonder , I can count how many times i go out with you
in a year . I don't even text you everyday . We talked rarely at msn , I began to feel insecure
and acted like .. i feel nothing when the meeting is cancel due to your tight schedule . I really
understand that you are busy with work . But I don't see the initiative in you to make up
our outing as we cancelled in a midst of November . We planned again , that also , i was the one
who speak up . We planned on Monday , last week . But you didn't even text me . Do you know
who hurtful to me? Well . I know it's nothing to you . cos you know we somehow gonna have our
family gathering on 25th . But i just miss out splendid outing! I don't have the guts to speak all those to you cos as you said i am clingy . I felt insecure to talk about this to you . So i rather
wrapped it all in me and till this point that i am having a big heart to post to all people that i miss , in my blog , i rather talk all about my 1001 thoughts to the person i miss .
You will always be in my pray sayang .
All the best fr your N level results!
And you know i will always always love you .

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Tong Juay .

The guy which i have known for 9 years and still counting .
Dude, i miss your stupid jokes, i miss your horny jokes.
I miss singing for you in class . I miss the moment you chased me with
lizards and cockroaches . You are the best guy friend i ever had , you never rude
to me, apparently you are such a caring friend . ^^
All the best for our N level next year ! (:

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Syazwani.

We had many things before . I understand that you
are having so much things now moreover with your mom's condition .
By not msging you , doesn't mean i have forgotten you okae .
You always be in my prayer and you always in my mind whenever i go .
I miss sleeping with you in class . Playing tictactoe during maths lesson .
Horny jokes with you and the gang . Eat and many many things with you .
We had so much things together . I just can't wait for school reopen to do those with you and
the gang , again . I just miss the moment . Especially with you . Although we not as close
as before , i always have been treated you as my dearest sister , with or without care shown
all this while . Hope that your mother can recover soon .
All the best for N level next year !

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DANIAAAA.

Ni kawan sexy aku . I miss having PepekNonokKonek talks with her.
Although i am not that real close to you , but i always treasure our friendship .
And you are easily missed by me . I can't wait for school reopen ,
I miss the moment spent with me and you and the rest .
All the best for our N level next year !

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Joey.

I miss this chinese handsome girl . We love to talk alot about love and life .
We quarreled alot but i treasure this friendship so much . We rarely talk now .
I wonder why . Maybe you're busy . i rarely see you online .
Hope things are good there .. Hope to hear from you soon .
All the best for our N level next year!

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My babygirls, Ardilla and Atiqah .

You know , the best moment i spent with you all was during our malay class .
I myself wonder why , cos we made stupid jokes with Cikgu together .
I really miss that . All though we are not close too , but those moments are easily
missed . I hope we can interact more next year ,
all the best for our N level next year! ((:

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Liyana.

I miss having fun watching hindustan at your house and we made stupid videos!
However in out busy days , I really want it again . :(
Haha, hope we can have it again and and ,
all the best for your O next year ! (:

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3C!

I miss the great, sad, dissapointed, happy , funny , cry moments
with this class! All my classmates , they are awesome! Not to forget ,
Mrs Raj and Mdm Annisa , Double-u (w) said by Mrs Raj and the care and concern
by Mdm annisa . Her teaching is the best . I flung in my chemistry when she left . I remember
me , ardilla and eqa always find her for help whenever there were tests and exams. I miss singing in the class with all my classmates . I miss THEM! Gosh .
OH . I MISS MY FLORIS BIMBO ALSO ! Oh my daddy . Can 2010 start faster? NOT LOOKING FORWARD FOR N LEVEL UH OF COS . BUT I WANT TO HAVE ALL THOSE MOMENTS AGAIN!

Sobs sobs .

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Till then ,
may peace be upon you .

2009-12-15T20:29:00.001-08:00

The world may change my whole life through, but nothings gonna change my love for you.

2009-12-13T16:54:00.000-08:00

I am terribly sick while im in a mood of doing art .
It just started 3 days ago . I had been rolling my
Yoko on my neck numerous time , due to the stiff-ness.
Had been also swallowing tons of panadols told by mama
as i thought it was nothing serious till i discovered I was down
with fever yesterday night , I guess it was around 38 degrees
celcius . My head was really in a great spun , in a verge of
vomitting . Caughing all the way and blocked nose.
Thanks god I have no tonsil infection . However my throat is really
being an irritating arse. I slept at 10 pm sharp yesterday . Mummy
was really worried and she left me some dollars in my wallet , to go
the doctor . I took time off for my art .

Today I woke up damn f early , hoping anyone to online in the morning ,
but unfortunately , there's no one . I am infront of my laptop for some accompanion
by youtubing for my breakfast . Updating my blog and I'm going off to the doctor soon.
I just bathed and I am sweating like f now . -.-

Nonetheless, I will continue my art later on ,
Pray hard I will be given some strength by god .
God willing . Till then ,

may peace be upon you .

Happiness.

2009-12-11T06:52:00.001-08:00

No matter how busy i am , I still make time for gym . Biaselah
udah semakin naik sik berat badan . Geram oi . HAHA!
Okay . Im great now . Cos soon i'm getting my money ,
NPCC is halfly done!And me and baby is in a great condition now ~
Aku sayang die sia . Rindu aku dengan peluk die semua . Heeeh!
K bye .

Haha, Ni shello betul peh kuangja grib grib . Macam adek adek die pulak!

may peace be upon you .

This post is as messy as my mind currently .

2009-12-09T10:40:00.000-08:00

Zarifah , we are paddling on the same boat .
I know you're struggling with homeworks, so am i .
I know you're fighting fuck hard for self , so am i .
I know you're trying very hard to be strong , so am i .

Tsssssssssssk.

Things are getting heavier now , more tougher to manage my time.
Holidays are getting to the end . Lots for me to catch up in study wise , art .
I need to go out , for my first hand observation , art . Besides, I really have to work out
too . But I don't think I have time for that too . My mistakes too , I should have done those
from earlier instead, i cropped everything towards the end of my holiday . CCA is also pushing myself beyond my limit . In addition , my logistic dearest partner, syaiful , isn't there for me . He's at Egypt currently . And he will be back for about 2 wks! :'(
So i have to make all proporsal, all by myself. How suck can that be . Not only about the camp proporsal, the mascot competition . How can I cope on this when i not even went to my art SCDF Mascot Competition ? I just endure and endure. Firstly , I regret on taking art . I should have cried more during the results for streaming last year, so that brother could help me to appeal A.Maths . Art is very time consuming . For those Sec 3 2010 who are taking art , good luck!
I know I have been slacking damn lots . I treated my holiday like as though I'm turning 15 next year . -.-

Due to N level , I am sure it's going to affect my relationship with shello . It has been affecting.
Can't you see? I used to post every entries about her . By having our new photos on every entries , was a must. We used to meet every 2 days . And otp at every nights from midnight till dawn. Now, once a week and a one or two hour talks . What about next year? Well I am sure something can always occupy me with studies , art , homeworks , projects , all about school . But what if , too busy for school till it affects our relationship ? You know , less quality time will always end up with conflicts . Anyway , I hope i can get use to now situation so that i can get more prepared for next year , being apart with baby for weeks perhaps. Baby always said , must have alot of patient and understanding and trust . I know i must not be too clingy but at the same time , I can't bare to see us getting busy and busy and let us be apart , for long time .
I know you will try. I trust you sayang.
God willing .

Right now it is nearly 4am , i just burst into tears . Tears of vexation .
I am clueless of who to turn to , but blog .
I am having a very bad body ache and my neck stiff like motherpoker. I swear it hurts alot .
Neckstiff = bad headache .
And i still have 123272834678694645 things to do and get over with .
I had a sleepless night today . I've been lacking of sleep .
But still I can't sleep today .
I have many things on my mind , especially cca.
cca has been caught up many things last minute .

I feel so weak .
Syaiful , please come back from egypt soon ..

:'(

It's all about you , It's all about you baby . <3

2009-12-07T05:48:00.000-08:00

I'm yours, you're mine fullstop.

Not regretting to be yours. Cos to me , you're my happiness.
Nothing could ever change my love for you . We have came nearly a month
of great friendship , now we seriously in a relationship , 6 December , 7:30 pm.
I was tounge tied . Extremely speechless . I love you so much . I really do .
Not a word can ever describe too, how grateful I am to have you in my life .
When we sang together , I smiled gleefully , with the witness of the neon lights
surrounded us . I really can't take my eyes off you . I do believe that , by looking at
the eyes, I could feel how beautiful and sincere your feelings are for me . In another
words, the door of heart . I totally agreed that .. the word 'beautiful' isn't suit for
appearance , never . It's love , the love and tender feeling . Trust me .
How i wish .. the awesome night yesterday will never end . The sweetness are
undescribable . And of cos , I always wanted to be in a long term relationship .
I know i can't promise you anything for now . But of what i know , in any point of times
be it good or bad , I will always be with you . Yes, love is indeed beautiful .
I hope it's not only for yesterday or today . I hope it will be everyday .
Let's keep this love burning , god willing. I love you , anak mohamad ♥

may peace be upon you .

I just can't stop laughing , when chatting with this wildboar.

2009-12-03T07:54:00.000-08:00

2nd post of the day .

Perhaps it's too funny to me that I thought of sharing .
Please click to enlarge , from the top .
till then ,

may peace be upon you .

After few months , the catch up was undescribable .

2009-12-03T06:41:00.000-08:00

Hi.

After few months , the catch up was awesome . Met Umaimah x3
Since the last few weeks we frequently promised each other to meet .
But unfortunately , there were many obstacles within those times
but thanks god , today , it went off smoothly . I took 2 bloody hours to
get dressed and make up . See how mentel i was . Okay . That was
at ION . Go to my facebook . I uploaded the early one . We went to ION
for some legging survey and window shop . Talked plenty about life .
It was great . Hey . It's soon gonna be friday! Tomorrow tomorrow!
What thing tomorrow ? baby gonna be backkkkkk! I'm gonna jump
around my house tomorrow when i wake up , sumpah su-wearrr!
Just too happy that's tomorrow is Friday . Trust me or not ,
I didn't cry this past 4 days . Serious! Not like baby , who cried
just for 3 days without me . HAHAHAHA! :DCos i got all my
days well spent perhaps . Thanks to the dearest friends for being there!
And thanks to my cuz anza also for accompanying me for some shopping tomorrow!
It's for this weekends , I'm gonna spend a day with baby , the
whole day . To add on , it's gonna be special ((: How can i just dress
up casually ? Neh neh . ehehe, I better sleep early tonight and no
more fairytales at night! Haha, don't laugh la . At night when i can't sleep
thinking about shello , I watched fairytales show okay . Okay la ,
till then ,

may peace be upon you .

I have been taking time for granted .

2009-12-02T06:42:00.001-08:00

Most favourite candid photo taken during the malay workshop
somehow in a midst or early of November?

I was totally being a retard at home thinking of baby .
Well , including today , counted as 3 more days .
soon it's gonna be 2 and i will be spending a whole day
with baby this weekend . I bet it's gonna be magnificent one .
Since I was like a wild boar today doing nothing , the
whole afternoon , eh no wait . I had a drama marathon
with mummy in the early evening . Did some house chores .
And I just did something just now! You know , to kill
boredom . I experimented for clothing wise for
this weekend with babyy! When i said , experimented ,
I really mean it . You know those top combined with a skirt ? I cut
away the top and try the skirt with other top . Not only that uh .
I also experimented other type of clothes . This should be done
often! So it dragged time till 10 pm . It was time for Singapore
Idol Results show! Finally Charles had been kicked out !
Glad to see a malay contestant in a Top 3. But well , I
still voted for Tabitha . Heh! Look at the time now ,
LOOK! It's 11.05 pm! 25 minutes to the ...
THE MOMENT OF TRUTH!
I better get going tho .
Goodnight .
Till then ,

May peace be upon you.

Waiting for centuries of years , I know it will be nothing when i know there's only you in me and no one else .

2009-12-01T07:38:00.001-08:00

These including Liyana , had lunch & did some study today
at Tamp Mart . See what i wore ^ ^ , We camwhored like 100 over pictures ?
Here it is .

Aniway ,
HI.
Well It has been quite some times I never hang around
with then since the last time we met which is the last day
of school . So it clearly elaborates that it has been nearly
a month , we didn't catch up things . Upon things that I
have studied , I have lots to catch up on that too which excluding
ART . CCA tinggy has been adding into my burden . And my burden
get heavier and heavier . It pressures me alot when I'm lighter my burden ,
and some thing nevertheless have to be added . Who will never get mad ?
Well I don't wish to talk about it , anymore . Rahayu is coming to my crib
the next day to complete the bloody crap thing .

You know why i said , it's crap ? Cos alot of my friends which are in NP ,
Are not even bothering about this . So don't you think it's superbly worthless?
I let it be in a harsh way . I really can't stand it . The only thing I really craving
for cca is that , I am really eager to step down . REAAAAALLLLLY .
Baby has finally bused to Malaysia . Currently ontheway to KL .
I had a bad morning today . We had a cold war this morning , like again .
I wonder why lah . But all this things started ever since I came back from
Bintan . Doesn't matter who fault is it . I really feel bad towards baby .
I know she doesn't deserve it. I should have appreciate her . What i did ?
I still gave her my damn attitude! Afterall , upon all those downcast moments we
faced, you know i will never give up on you . And you know we will always be
together through good and bad times . Have a save trip sayang . Kiss.

Till then ,

may peace be upon you .

Stay strong is indeed unbearable .

2009-11-29T08:11:00.000-08:00

Splendid time with baby at her crib just now baking cookies .
But I just really can't accept the fact that , Time must however
flies fast whenever we are having fun , why ?
Just answer me why . Why ? :'(

It is as fast as how my holidays just gone like the wind.
It is in a midst of my holidays, what have i done ? I
have done nothing much with study terms but I spent most of my days,
with baby and that's it . She has been non-stopping making
my day like though I was in a heaven . I just can't let
a day or 2 without contacting her and such .
Imagine if it's 5 days . Which will begin by tomorrow till Friday .
I'm gonna be missing her tremendously .

Somehow I can't go on being like this . Love is not always be 2 right?
I must pick up some things to do to occupy my days so that i will
not missing her and cry as usual . I told dania about what to do when she's
missing someone . But I can't apply it to myself . It's tough, trust me .
Moreover if that person always spend her 24/7 with you . Maybe I
shall try doing something . I'm glad that I have awesome friends
around me . They were there volunteering to make plans with me
throughout this 5 bloody days . I ought to be opstimic
and cry no more hopefully. God bless. Till then ,

may peace be upon you .

Bintan!

2009-11-27T07:11:00.001-08:00

Hey . I miss blogging . But ofcos . I miss baby more uh . 3 days without her , i really felt different . I miss her laughter , her teases , her hugsandkisses, her frustrated voice (HAHA) , her smooches and many more uh . I can frankly said that i'm not puting 100 percent into all activites or the trip cos half of it , i kept thinking about her . Really! Look at this . I smelled her hoodies like everytime i saw it infront of my eyes. And while waiting for the flying fox thang , I even wrote and doodle her name on the sand . Wah .

So basically , the huts were okay la . Thumbs up . Nothing much to be expect what . Adventure camp mah . Thumb up is referring to the bed . and toilet on each huts . Quite a satisfactory uh . Overall , I did ofcos enjoyed myself although i did not grab the chance to complete some of the activies .

The food was okay despite for the fact that i saw a worm in my food for once. However , im still grateful that there's food . Even at bintan , it is too leisure that i ate alot and milo for every meal .
It's pathetic that i was served alot of milk contained drinks but there's no leisure toilet to shit . Shit . That clearly explain that i save all my food for 3 days in my big intestine . I felt like crying when everytime i wanted to shit , I just can't! Blergh.

First day :
Reached at 12pm ( 11am , sing ) , had lunch and proceed to allocated huts . I wasn't feeling that well . I felt weak and had a giddy . We had trekking and bonneting for the day . Trekking was tiring , seriously . I did halfway as i can't stand my giddiness and therefore, i came down and rest while waiting fr the rest to come down . Ate panadol which given by Miss Ponniah (Y) . Afterwhich , when i felt much better, we proceed to the bonneting . We have to jump down from different height we want from a ferry WHILE MOVING , to the net provided. But it's really enjoyable . Came back for dinner at 6 pm (7pm , sing) , we had free and easy afterwhich . Planned for campfire cheer and performance. Light off and i'm the first one to snort . :D

Second day :
Had CIP project to do . It was sumpah su-wearr fun! We had to do mosquitoes net on one of the village . Get done with it , chilled at on of this village , nice scenery . (Y) Camwhore and camwhore and camwhore . Wah . I tell you eh . Pictures are wayyyyyy more than 200 ! Perhaps it's about .. close to 400 ? Well , I will put the fb link beneath this post yea ! Fb is currently playing fire with me . I've been uploading all the pics yesterday and it has been failing! Darn.
Bus-ed back to Loola resort and had our lunch . My team proceed to the water Flying Fox . It was a damn nerve wrecking uh . I did climb up . But when i have reached the top , I cried . and i climbed back down . HAHA! The last one to jump down is Fatin and she took 45 mins to jump . So we all proceed to Kayaking . Double seated and i Kayak with zack . It was unexpected that i could complete the journey uh cos i always give reason to escape halfway . heeeh! :D Bathed and dinner . Had SATAYYYY! Few minutes later , had camp fire . It was pretty awesome . Mini party was perhaps great ! But too bad . I have to accompany zack to find his HP that dropped IN THE SEA . And luckily it was low tide . I mean , very low . In a midst of it , I have to nevertheless walked with barefooted as my slipper , broke halfway . Imagine if i stepped onto a crab or whatever sharp thang . In addition , there were tons of crab holes! Okay so after spending around half an hour there finding , I thought of joining the party , but i was told that there's only 10 mins laft prolly . Thus i went to the STAR GAZING AREA with aisyah and zack and camwhore ! The other NCOs and camwhore again! Lie down at Star gazing area and proceed to HO's hut and chit chat . Off to sleep! Lights off at 12am (1 am, sing ) . (Y)

Third day :
Breakfast as usual . We did rock climbing and yknow what .. I reached the TOP! :D Just 1 activity on that day . We went off at Loola at 10 am ( 11 am , sing ) and shopping! I bought myself a handbag and a hair band. Shoe and crackers for mum! Lots of balance left since there's not much time for shopping .. Anyway , i'm gonna miss this trip . This trip has teached me alot in terms of perserverance and confidence. Bonding is definately . I hope i can go through overseas trip again before or rather, next yr , I will be the first one to raise up my hand for it! Although it's not as awesome as Perak 2008 , but i still enjoyed myself ! Splendid Bintan . Goodbye Bintan x3

I'm meeting baby tomorrow at her crib for cookies making!
I will spending my whole day with her tomorrow .
Wah . It has been a week i never see her .
Sobs .

Kay, goodnight .

Bintan's picture, HERE .
There's 3 albums okies.
Happy viewing ((:

I can say that I am truly happy to this day,

2009-11-21T09:16:00.000-08:00

Every post pasal kau eh sayang ? Semua kau . *Evil laughs*

Sumpah aku suke last picture . Macam ala ala

gambar passport . Maksud aku , aku tak buley imagine uh kalau

gambar I/C die gitu . HAH!

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The night before , i was talking to ♥ till 3.30 am and i woke up today at 6.45 am just to bus

to woodland , just to meet her . She was to meet her father at airport in afternoon .

I was like .. omgg . just 3 more days left to be at home before going to the Bintan . I just want it to be well spent with ♥ and family..

More over.. ♥ is going to KL after my 3 days 2 nights Bintan Trip and in addition , she will be going to Genting straight after KL for 1 wk! So that will be 2 wks for nt meeting her! Neither otp and sms . I sob everytime I think about it . I've been staying strong which i hope i can for the next two weeks. Pray hard. Well, I doubt so . But nevertheless , i will still try .

Get done and over with .

As you realised, November is nearly end . And what have i done so far?

I've been rotting , shello, eat , sleep , shello, eat , sleep, rotting and that's it . I have not touch any of my N level art coursework . Love dilemma eh ? But i just can't live minutes without her uh . LOLS! But I know i musn't make it a habit uh . During 2 wks without her , I really must get started with school stuff uh , ESPECIALLY ART OI! I have not grabbedddd any ideaaa

for goodness sake. I've been very lazy and i ate alot . I bet I've gained weight , AGAIN .

How can i not be frustrated . During that 2 wks also , I must start to do workouts already uh .

I must get myself occupy mah .. with that only i will not let myself miss her or else i will cry and cry and cry again . Wah .

Currently I'm in a 'Project' fever . Cos i'm giving ♥ something on monday .

25th , on monday , ♥ is coming to my crib to help me pack Bintan stuff and she wants

to watch Syurga Cinta (Heaven love) ! And it's gonna be a last meeting before i gone . :(

The home made gift does really take alot of effort . Cos without effort , the result won't be a satisfactory one . But I don't think I have done my best for the first gift I have done .

But anyways , i hope she likes it .

Anyways . Today I met her and had a treated breakfast at macD! And guess what , it's EGG SAUSAGE MCMUFFIN! Wah , toe licking sia . No one knows right how love i have been craving for that ? It had been months you know! Afterwhich we were supposed to bus to old woodland to get clothes for the project but i had feelings that the price gonna be at $2.50 the minimum for 1m (?) . So we end up , hang out at normal place, thanks for the jacket baby . Bau macam baby! :P

Then to causeway for window shopping and baby sent me home at 1+ pm, reached at 3pm sharp!

Started work for monday thang . Meantime , I felt weak and sick . Since in the midst of window shopping with ♥ uh . I justrealised when ♥ took pictures of us together before i got into 168 , my lips were really pale . However , I really want to do the project mann! If there's energy pills eh eh ... haha! I took a nap after I have managed to finish 1/4 of it . Oh , I ordered KFC DELIVERY!! It's nearly 30 bucks sia .. See, I told you . I've been eating alot! And , I thought my energy would gain by then but too bad , I was still in the same condition .

Well , It's getting late now . I mean verrrrry . It's nearly 3am . I should be sleeping early in this condition .. Tomorrow going to Nenek Dong's house for some family issues . I swear I'm not looking forward for it . Brother not gonna tag along . Hence, i'm gonna be all by myself .
♥ 's pp8 is getting low . That explains that i can't even text her that much lor. DAMNNNNNN .

And besides, the project gonna be done in a hardcore manner man . I hope it can be done by Monday .

Okay I think i have posted so much .

I better get going .

Have a good night and may peace be upon you . ((:

Video as promised:)

2009-11-20T01:50:00.000-08:00

This is fun but since her mom was at the next room ,
we acted like normal friends .
Kekok kebabian sia . :/

Feeling to the max oi!
Lips singing la sesangatnye .

Anak rahim sayang Anak mohamad!

2009-11-18T06:00:00.000-08:00

Hey readers .

Just one word, a word, AWESOME . I met baby again . I was f early lor . Then i thought of
buying for baby something , so i walkked around at Tamp 1 . I thought of buying for her Spegetti at pastamania because i remember she was in a 'jealous' mood when i said to her about me eating spegetti . HAHA! But i have feelings pastamania somehow cannot pack food home :/

So last last i bought for her, J.CO!

Still got so much time left , I went around again , and bought permenant marker.
The J.CO was actually meant for forgiveness upon the attidues i gave and too much sulks perhaps , I just feel bad . So i added a little notes on it . Sweet kan ? :P

After we ate it , pity baby as she ought to pick up all the rubbish and such , making me felt like a
princess! Afterwhich , teached her some basic art stuff .Played the laptop and we recorded a video , which i will upload later , god bless . A video of ala ala "Lucky" by Jason and idk who . Funny . Baby sent me home at 6pm . And i reached home at 8pm sharp . Had a great dinner cooked by mom . Super princess betol makcik suwee kau ni!

*Giggles*

Shello .

2009-11-16T22:32:00.000-08:00

Yo wassup ? Today basically i rot at home lor . Doing nothing . I had a terrible morning as i just slept without knowing that i slept with a huge lizard beside me . I shouted and rolled within my living room back and forth . Going to the bank later to re-do my POSB card .

Yesterday i had an awesome moment with baby . Had training in the morning and I went off at 1145 . Zack was in the pain of my ass , he texted baby and ran about in the field . I was late and i had a crazy time catching him . So therefore, instead of 1145, i went off at 12 . I was really pissed off . Luckily , 291 just came on time , so there were'nt any waiting . Thanks god . Went to the bank again to deposit the cheque . And the que was fucking lonnnnnnnnng . I stomped my feet and i kept blabbering to myself non-stop . RAN home and quickly changed to short and had a slight make up on and bused to woodland! My legs were aching like those aunty in 70s ! But it's okay . I bear with it simply because .. I i I i i I . hHAHAHA! you should know uh baby . Hahs! 168 was packed . But still i had a seat for myself . But darn , the aircons uh , both JUST LEFT HOLES! I was shivering you know . Moreover eh . The weather wasn't that good . I still have to wait for her for minutes when i was expecting her to wait for me instead of me . But still, it's okayy . Agenda of it was only to meet her and express the misses . Had lunch at banquet , thanks baby for the treat . As usual , we hang around and camwhore! See the 7th photo . I was in her grip . Kesian doh kene bully . All she did is to take candid photos! Arghhh, geram !

Walked off at 5 pm sharp . Met baby's friends at civic centre and malu nyerrr akuu! Bused home at 5 ++ pm . Had a great nap . Psssst . How i wish this can go on everyday . Best sia! :P

ps: I love you .

2009-11-15T07:21:00.000-08:00

I'm gonna meet shello baby tomorrow !

2009-11-13T06:21:00.000-08:00

Baby , I should not have said I miss you .
The phrase, "I miss you" is so hurtful .
Hurt me so deeply..

Compared to having high hopes on you ,
what's the different ..?

I should not be putting high hopes on you
neither should i miss you ..

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Have a safe trip .

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The most I treasure .

2009-11-12T07:01:00.000-08:00

I had Bintan briefing this morning at 9 am . But hey . I were at the bus station at 8:30am . To me it is damn early la hor . Cos it's only a 10 mins trip . But what the hell , 3 buses were extremely pack . Hence i have to wait for the 4th bus and the 4th one came at 9 am . I was late . But still , I were the first one to arrive . -.- Thought of collecting my Sec 4 books . But the bookstore will only open on the 16th or something ? Yeahs . Early thought la huh . haa!

Went home straight away and on my laptop to charge my ipod. Thought of some nap since my head was still in a bad condition.. But once i on , numerous people came and chat . So I had no chooice but to entertain . My MSN, auto-log in mah ..
But it's okay . In a midst of it , i also thought of
downloading some new songs from youtube to my Ipod . But nothing gain .
It was very lag . My Ipod is really a bore you know . I mean. Not the Ipod la . But the songs . Thanks god the new songs received from friends had been sync-ed! :D
And in a midst of trying to download and download , i didn't realise that the time was 11:30am , i was still in my NP shirt and skirt with my leg wide open . -.- I was late ! I were supposed to meet shello at woodland at 1:45pm! She is sick , pity her . So stubborn head still want to go to school in the morning . I thought i were late . But NO! I reached woodland inter and still have to wait 30 MINS! I swear my tearduct was to burst at that point of time .
But it's okay . I was patiently waiting . ((:

Afterwhich , we headed to banquet to have lunch . And hang around somewhere .
Overall , I find that she's uberly cute and sweeeet. Verrrrrry .
But sadly she had to go early .

& I am wondering , when can we meet again ?
Faster meeeeet! :D

Shellow is hot and i friggin' love my brother <3

2009-11-10T04:14:00.000-08:00

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HEY! , I just want to share something great that happened to me yesterday . I met a new friend! Shellow . She's the same age as me and she's super outgoing and fun and and and and... haha! How i wish i could elaborate more . The whole day of today we texted each other . Even now i am still chatting with her . We just had an awesome webcam . She makes me go high till i laugh laugh like you know those people just get discharged from IMH . I think more worse uh . I was like smiling 24/7 non stop . I wonder why i am comfortable when i talk to her . Maybe we have alot of similarities .

I'm so sorry if i kept calling you 'mangkuk' (bowl) about your hair . But still you know that you always look cute in whatever hairstyles you have . Hahahha! Oh . She wants to watch 'NEXT moon' with me in december! HHAHA! Kay . Better stop teasing her . Or else she will disturb me 10 times rabak than this . Warning just stated just now that she wants to cocokcocok me cos i melata and she promise will make me dance in the middle of a shopping complex . Moreover with what i just teased her . Perhaps i may get more than what she just said . God .
Afterall , thanks god for giving me a new friend like her .
Very caring and swit always ((:

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Today i rot at home . Kept thinking about money . Hahaha! Brother was doing a shopping survey on com and in a midst of it , i interrupted his business and he said ,

Abang : " Sri , nice sia this bag .. "

Me: " Yeah nice . hahaa! Nice nice "

Abang : "Ey sri , you will be getting your money this sunday right ? "

Me: " Yeah . Laugh . why ? "

Abang : "Nothing , this bag looks really damn nice .. "

Me : " HAHA . YE LA ABANNGG . JUST SIMPLY TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT . "

Abang : "You still owe me a birthday present .. "

Me : " Haa . Ye ye . Since i have not gotten you any for your birthday ,
let this bag be a present for you from me ((: "

Abang: *clap hands *

10 mins later he called his friend and said that , Eh , my sister is buying for me this bag! Wah i suddenly love her . Hahahah! Busted sia . Afterall that bag gonna a cost a bomb . Sigh , its okay . I know it will be nothing compared to what he has been sacrificing for me all this while . ((:
And somehow , doing good things , like what i did to my brother despite knowing that i have been wanting to buy a new phone and spectacles , it really makes my day .

Tomorrow what plan ?
I have no plan . But i really want to go out .
And oh my , tomorrow shellow gonna have a class till 5! Gonna miss her . ):
Now im still thinking , in a midst of waiting for her msges and such ,
what am i suppose to do ?

Well maybe i can hop to umaimah's crib for some camwhore .
If that also she's free hopefully .

May peace be upon you babies .